A strained, tense gesture as Hawksley seized the photograph; then his

chin sank slowly to his chest. A moment later Cutty was profoundly

astonished to see something sparkle on its way down the bed quilt.

Tears!

"I'm sorry!" cried Cutty, troubled and embarrassed. "I'm terribly sorry!

I should have had the decency to wait a day or two."

"On the contrary, thank you!" Hawksley flung up his head. "Nothing in

all God's muddied world could be more timely--the face of my mother!

I am not ashamed of these tears. I am not afraid to die. I am not even

afraid to live. But all the things I loved--the familiar earth, the

human beings, my dog--gone. I am alone."

"I'm sorry," repeated Cutty, a bit choked up. This was honest misery and

it affected him deeply. He felt himself singularly drawn.

"I want to live. Because I am young? No. I want to prove to the shades

of those who loved me that I am fit to go on. So my identity is known to

you?"--dejectedly.

"Yes. You wish me to forget what I know?"

"Will you?"--eagerly. "Will you forget that I am anything but a naked,

friendless human being?"

"Yes. But your enemies know."

"I rather fancy they will keep the truth to themselves. Let them publish

my identity, and a hundred havens would be offered. Your Government

would protect me."

"It is doing so now, indirectly. But why do you not want it known?"

"Freedom! Would I have it if known? Could I trust anybody? Would it not

be essentially the old life in a new land? I want a new life in a new

land. I want to be born again. I want to be what you patently are, an

American. That is why I risked life a hundred times in coming all these

miles, why I sit in this chair before you, with the room rocking because

they battered in my head. I do not offer a human wreck, an illiterate

mind, in exchange for citizenship. I bring a tolerably decent manhood.

Try me! Always I have admired you people. Always we Russians have.

But there is no Russia now that I can ever return to!" Hawksley's head

drooped again and his bloodshot eyes closed.

Cutty sensed confusion, indecision; all his deductions were upset in

the face of this strange appeal. Russian, born of an Italian mother

and speaking Oxford English as if it were his birthright; and wanting

citizenship! Wasn't ashamed of his tears; wasn't afraid to die or to

live! Cutty searched quickly for a new handhold to his antagonism, but

he found only straws. He was honest enough to realize that he had built

this antagonism upon a want, a desire; there was no foundation for it.

Downright likeable. A chap who had gone through so much, who was in such

a pitiable condition, would not have the wit to manufacture character,

camouflage his soul.




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