Well, he is not a ghost; yet every nerve I have is unstrung: for a

moment I am beyond my own mastery. What does it mean? I did not

think I should tremble in this way when I saw him, or lose my voice

or the power of motion in his presence. I will go back as soon as I

can stir: I need not make an absolute fool of myself. I know

another way to the house. It does not signify if I knew twenty

ways; for he has seen me.

"Hillo!" he cries; and he puts up his book and his pencil. "There

you are! Come on, if you please."

I suppose I do come on; though in what fashion I know not; being

scarcely cognisant of my movements, and solicitous only to appear

calm; and, above all, to control the working muscles of my face--

which I feel rebel insolently against my will, and struggle to

express what I had resolved to conceal. But I have a veil--it is

down: I may make shift yet to behave with decent composure.

"And this is Jane Eyre? Are you coming from Millcote, and on foot?

Yes--just one of your tricks: not to send for a carriage, and come

clattering over street and road like a common mortal, but to steal

into the vicinage of your home along with twilight, just as if you

were a dream or a shade. What the deuce have you done with yourself

this last month?"

"I have been with my aunt, sir, who is dead."

"A true Janian reply! Good angels be my guard! She comes from the

other world--from the abode of people who are dead; and tells me so

when she meets me alone here in the gloaming! If I dared, I'd touch

you, to see if you are substance or shadow, you elf!--but I'd as

soon offer to take hold of a blue ignis fatuus light in a marsh.

Truant! truant!" he added, when he had paused an instant. "Absent

from me a whole month, and forgetting me quite, I'll be sworn!"

I knew there would be pleasure in meeting my master again, even

though broken by the fear that he was so soon to cease to be my

master, and by the knowledge that I was nothing to him: but there

was ever in Mr. Rochester (so at least I thought) such a wealth of

the power of communicating happiness, that to taste but of the

crumbs he scattered to stray and stranger birds like me, was to

feast genially. His last words were balm: they seemed to imply

that it imported something to him whether I forgot him or not. And

he had spoken of Thornfield as my home--would that it were my home!




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