“You’ve got some muscles on you there.” She stared at my arms appreciatively.
“Well, I try.” I jumped up and walked over to her. “I guess they could do some damage.”
“I bet.” She shivered and I couldn’t help myself anymore. I reached over and pulled her towards me, looking into her eyes for her permission before I kissed her. She nodded slightly and that was all I needed before I pressed my lips down on hers. I felt a fever in my head as our lips met and a spark of heat flew down my spine. My body had missed her even more than I thought.
“You’re cold.” I grabbed her hands and rubbed them in mine.
“It’s a cold night.”
“Not really,” I looked up at her in concern. “Are you sick?”
“No.” She smiled. “Though I do feel feverish inside.”
“Oh no.” I raised my head to her forehead to see if she had a temperature.
“I think I need the doctor to tend to me.”
“Oh really?”
“Yes, doctor. I think you need to examine me.”
“Hmm, I think I need you na**d if I’m to do a proper examination.”
“I may need help taking my clothes off.”
“I can certainly oblige with removing clothes; in fact, it’s a specialty of mine.”
“Ooh, I like being with professionals.” She giggled and I grabbed the buttons on her blouse and pulled her towards me.
“I like being with you as well.”
“So what are you going to do to me, doctor?”
“I’m going to make you all better.” I growled in her ear and she moaned as I pulled her top off. I stared at her for a few moments in her lacy cream bra and then unclasped it and pulled it off. “First, I’m going to examine your br**sts and make sure everything is okay.”
“Oh, doctor, that tickles.”
“Really?” I paused. “Maybe I’m examining them incorrectly.” I bent down and traced my tongue around her breast before taking her nipple into my mouth.
“Oh, doctor.” She let out a sigh as she rested her head back and ran her hands through my hair.
“The left breast seems fine.” I grinned at her wickedly and then moved over to the right breast. “Now on to the next.”
“You’re going to make me feel like a pervert the next time I go in for a mammogram. You know that, right?”
“Just remember that your regular doctors shouldn’t be checking you this way.” I grinned up at her before nibbling on her right nipple. She cried out and I smiled. “Just testing that you still have sensitivity there.”
“Ass.” She laughed and I reached down to her pants.
“Are you ready for further testing, Robin?”
“Yes, doctor.” She grinned excitedly and I picked her up into my arms and carried her to the bedroom.
“I’ve missed you.” I couldn’t stop myself from uttering as I laid her down.
“I’ve missed you as well.” She purred up at me.
“I mean, I’ve really missed you. I’m sorry, you know that, right? I didn’t mean to keep anything from you. I just didn’t want to…”
“Shh.” She placed a finger on my lips. “Let’s not talk about this now.”
“I don’t want you to think that this is just about sex for me. It means so much more than that to me.”
“It means more to me as well.” Her eyes pleaded with me to let it go. I decided to ignore the voice in my head that said to talk before we had sex. Sex wasn’t going to absolve her fears. But I couldn’t resist myself as she wiggled in the bed below me. I stared at her perky br**sts as they jiggled and brushed against my chest. I couldn’t resist her. I was attracted to her, like a moth to a flame, and right now neither of us was worried about getting burned. But that’s what sexual attraction does to people. It makes you forget about all the other problems bubbling at the surface.
“I’m going to make love to you gently and slowly and then I’m going to…”
“No need to be gentle.” She shook her head. “I’ve been a bad girl. Treat me like a bad girl.”
“You want me to spank you?”
“I want you to make me forget my own name.” Her eyes sparkled at me.
“I’ll f**k you so good that all you can think about is my name.” I pushed her back on the bed and unbuckled her pants roughly. “And I won’t let you come until you beg me.”
“Oh, Noah.” She closed her eyes and my fingers ran up her inner thigh and stopped at the edge of her panties. My finger traced an invisible line along the middle of her panties and she gasped as my finger roughly rubbed her bud.
“Touch me, Noah.”
“Shh. I’m in charge.” I looked down at her and covered her mouth with mine, enjoying the look of surprise in her eyes at my roughness.
“I need to feel you.” She whispered and I removed my fingers from her panties. She groaned in frustration and I gave her a stern look.
“The doctor’s in the house, and he’s making the rules tonight.”
“But I want to feel your c**k in me so badly, Noah.” Her voice sounded like it was singing. “I’ve been aching for your touch.”
“Don’t say that.” I groaned. “You’re going to make me come before I even take my pants off.”
“No, I won’t.” She laughed.
“Trust me, you will.” I caressed her cheek as I kissed her. “It hasn’t been that long, but my body has been missing you.”“Not as much as I’ve been missing you.”
“Even though you’ve been mad at me?”
“That hasn’t stopped me from masturbating to thoughts of you every night.”
“You think of me when you pleasure yourself?” A warm and happy feeling spread through me at her words.
“Every single time.”
“I guess it shouldn’t surprise you that I’ve been thinking of you as well.”
“What do you think about?” She whispered in my ear and reached up pull my shirt off. I knew that if I was staying in character I should tell her off, but I was too excited by the feel of her fingers against my skin.
“I think about you touching me and kissing me.” I muttered gruffly as her fingers worked their way down my pants. “Only it never felt this good.”
“Your dreams of me could never live up to the reality of me,” she whispered softly in my ear.
“You’re right about that.” I closed my eyes and fell back on the bed, my aggressor role long gone.
“Make love to me, Noah.” She curled up next to me. “I just want to feel you.”
“You don’t have to ask me twice.” I pulled her on top of me and sank my teeth into her neck as my hand found its way back down her body.
***
“I’m going to have the best sleep.” Robin purred next to me, after her third orgasm of the night. “I’m not sure that I’m ever going to have a good night’s sleep without you in my bed.”
“I’m glad that I’m able to satisfy you in more than one way.” I smiled at her gently, but as I glanced at the clock on her bedside table I felt a sudden jolt of panic.
“What’s wrong?” She gave me a small look of fear.
“Nothing’s wrong.” I sighed and sat up and looked down at her angelic face as she lay there na**d next to me, with her hair flowing down her body. “But I think I have to go.”
“Go?” She frowned and looked at me in disappointment. “You can’t go, it’s 3 a.m.” She looked at the clock as well.
“I’m sorry, but I don’t want to be missing when Skylar wakes up in the morning.”
“Oh.” She bit her lower lip and looked away from me. “Bye, then.”
“I know it’s shitty. I’m sorry.” I got out of the bed and stood there looking at her, hoping she would look at me and understand how much I wanted to stay the night with her. “You know I had a wonderful night, right?”
“Sure, booty calls are normally wonderful.”
“It wasn’t a booty call, for me.” I grabbed her hands and made her look at me. “Don’t say that.”
“It sure feels like a booty call. You got what you needed. Heck, the other guy even walked away before you even had to prove your worth. It’s all so easy for you, isn’t it, Noah Beaumont?”
“Don’t be like this, Robin.” I sat on the bed and looked at her with sorrowful eyes. “I really like you and I want to see where this can go. This isn’t just about sex, but I can’t stay the night. I have responsibilities now. I have a child. I have to be there for her when she wakes up in the morning. It wouldn’t be fair to her if I wasn’t there. She wouldn’t understand why I’m not there in the morning.” I repeated more firmly, willing her to understand.
“It’s fine.” Robin’s eyes glazed over. “I understand. Just go.”
“I’m not going to just go when you’re in this mood.”
“What do you want me to say, Noah?” She shrugged. “I get it. You have a kid now. A kid I didn’t even know existed until she showed up.”
“I’m sorry I didn’t explain about her. It was hard for me to talk about my relationship with Monica and Skylar. I didn’t want to scare you or make you think I was crazy. It was a strange situation to be in. I wasn't even sure what I was going to do. I had just met you. I didn’t want to scare you away.”
“You did a good thing, Noah.” She sighed and grabbed my hands and smiled at me weakly. There were tears in her eyes and my heart froze. “Trust me, I wish that someone would have loved me enough to do whatever it took to make my life better.”
“Your foster parents loved you.”
“They did, but they had so many children.” She sighed. “Sometimes, you just want to feel special.”
“I can understand that.”
“Like right now. I love what you’ve done for Skylar, Noah. I absolutely love it. You’re such a great man for taking a child that isn’t even yours. You’re dedicated to her well-being already, and you want the best for her. You’re thinking of her first in your life. She is your life right now.”
“Yes, yes she is.” I nodded, glad she understood where I was coming from.
“But,” She paused and gave me a look that sent shivers down my spine. “I want to be first in the guy I date’s life right now. I want to be number one, I want to be the one you want to make happy. I want you to stay with me because that’s what you want, and because you know it will make me happy.”
“You don’t know how badly I want to stay.” I started but she shook her head and stopped me.
“But you can’t. I can never be your number one.” She lay back and closed her eyes. “I dare say I sound like a selfish bitch right now. But I’ve never been a first priority. I want it so badly. I want to be with you, Noah. I like you so much. But I need to know what it feels like to be number one. I want to be the most important person in someone’s life. That’s all I’ve ever wanted.”
“I can’t give you that right now,” I mumbled as I felt my heart breaking.
“I know.” Her voice sounded pained. “Maybe we should just forget this.”
“Are you joking?” I pulled her up and made her look at me. “Are you f**king joking me, Robin?” Her eyes popped open in shock as she looked at me.
“What?”
“Don’t be stupid here, Robin. I’m going to pretend that your words are coming from a place of hurt and upset. I understand your need to be number one in someone’s life. And you would be the number one woman in my life. There is no one else I’d rather date right now. We have a special connection. Yes, I have a daughter. Yes, she is who I have to think about first. But we’re adults, Robin. We’ve both been through shit, but we’d be fools to let what we have go because of something this stupid. I’ve already f**ked up once, but I’ve been lucky. You’ve forgiven me and you’re willing to give me a second chance. I’m not going to screw that up. But you’re not going to hold Skylar against me. You’re not that kind of woman. At least, the woman I’m falling in love with is not that woman. Don’t tell me I got you wrong.” I stopped and looked at her with my heart beating quickly. This was it. I’d laid it all on the line. This was make or break.
“You have more faith in me than I have in myself.” She laughed lightly and sat up, so that she was staring into my eyes. “And you’re willing to fight for me, for us.” She sighed and a lone tear rolled down her face. “I’m f**ked up, Noah. I don’t know how to handle emotions. I’m scared that I’m going to get hurt.”
“I will never hurt you, Robin. I promise.”
“But that’s not something you can really promise, is it?” She ran her hands through her hair. “You’re such a good man. When I look at you, I almost forget that I’m me, carrying the problems of the world on my shoulders.”
“I can help take care of that burden.” I moved in closer to her so that she could see the sincerity into my eyes. “I want to take on some of that burden. And I want you to bond with Skylar, if you’re willing to do that.”
“Are you sure?” She looked at me with uncertain eyes.