“Good evening,” he said.

Her head whipped up. “Logan. You’re home.”

God. The words set his world spinning. She almost sounded happy to see him. And those words.

Logan. You’re home.

He’d never expected to hear those words. Not in all his life.

And damn, she looked lovely. She was wearing only a dressing gown wrapped tight over her nightrail. Her hair was a loose plait draped over one shoulder. Soft, dark tendrils worked loose, framing her face with curls.

But something else drew his gaze and held it.

Her braid was tied not with a scrap of plain muslin but with a bit of plaid.

His plaid.

It was all too much. His sense of relief at finding them both safe. The softness in her eyes, the welcome in her voice. That swatch of his tartan in her hair. He’d traveled long and hard to be here tonight, and it all just made him feel he might collapse.

And what was he going to do? Take her in his arms and tell her he’d missed her every moment he’d been gone? Tell her how jealous he was that Grant could make her laugh with that stupid joke, when Logan hadn’t managed it once?

Of course not. Because those things would be reasonable, and he couldn’t hold on to a shred of sense around her. Because when someone so blithely offered him the one thing he’d been denied all his life and had sworn to never crave, his first impulse had to be distrust. And anger.

Stupid, unreasoned anger.

“What’s going on here?” he demanded.

“We’re just talking,” Maddie said. “Are you hungry? I could get you some—­”

“No.”

“She’s making me a sketch of the bairns.” Grant lifted the paper and showed it to him proudly. “Look at that. It’s just like ’em the day I kissed ‘em good-­bye. I suppose they’ve got bigger now.”

Logan took the paper and examined it. He didn’t have his spectacles on, but even without them he could see the skill in her drawing. Two fair-­haired children, one boy and one girl, holding hands beneath a rowan tree.

“Say, can we go to Ross-­shire tomorrow?” Grant asked. “I’m keen to see them for myself.”

“Aye, mo charaid. Tomorrow. For tonight, it’s time to sleep. Go on, then. The others are just up the stairs.”

Grant nudged him with an elbow as he moved past. “Do you know you’re married to her?” he asked, tilting his head toward Maddie.

Logan gave her a look. “Yes.”

The big man reached out and ruffled Logan’s hair. “Lucky bastard.”

Once Grant had left, Maddie quietly rinsed the teacups and put them away. She moved the lamp to a hook, wiped the table clean, and hung the towel to dry. All in silence.

She was avoiding him.

Very well, then. Logan would wait. He had all night.

When she finally turned to him, he lifted the sketch of Grant’s children. “What is the meaning of this?”

“I beg your pardon.” She frowned. “I gave that to Grant. It’s his.”

“He’ll forget in ten minutes. He’s not going to miss it.”

“Perhaps not, but he’s missing them. They’re his children.”

Logan shook the paper as he advanced on her. “This is not the way to help. What good does it do? It’s only going to upset him, wondering where they are.”

“Perhaps talking about the memories will help his mind to heal.”

“It’s been over a year. He’s not going to heal. He needs consistency. A safe, familiar place where he won’t be agitated all the time.”

Maddie circled to his side of the table and leaned her weight on the edge. She crossed her arms over the front of her dressing gown and regarded him with that solemn, searching expression. Looking for his empty spaces.

“So this is why it’s so important to you,” she said, “for the two of us to keep up appearances. To be properly married. It isn’t only about the land. If Grant believes you’ve had your happy homecoming with the sweetheart who sent you letters, you can keep him believing that his own happiness is just around the corner. That you’ll take him to Ross-­shire to see his nan and the wee ones. Always tomorrow. Never today.”

Logan didn’t try to dispute it. He wasn’t ashamed. “I just want him to be at peace. As much as he can be.”

“But you can’t lie to him forever, Logan. What happens when he starts to get older? When he looks around to see that everyone’s hair is gray, and his hands are spotted with age, and his friends have all married and had children—­even grandchildren—­of their own?”




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