“We’re going to get out of this,” I promise. It’s all I can say, all I can believe.
“Yeah,” she snarls. The ridges of her nose flex with hot emotion. “And how are you going to manage that?”
“I’ve escaped them before.”
“Okay.” She nods her head savagely, sandy brown hair tossing wildly around the tan, neutral tone of her draki flesh. “How? How are we going to do that? How’d you do it last time?”
Will. Will is how I escaped. Except he isn’t here. I have to figure a way out of this for myself. For both of us.
Miram fills the silence, her voice eerily flat. “They’re taking us to the enkros. We’re as good as dead.”
“You don’t know that,” I whisper, testing the plastic ties at my wrists with my teeth. Useless.
“Oh, face it, Jacinda. Where else could we be going? Alive? They haven’t killed us. Clearly there’s a reason for that. They’re saving us for something. For . . . them.” Them. The monsters of our childhood nightmares. Heat feathers along my flesh.
She’s right. I know it of course. That’s how hunters live. They flourish through selling my kind. I can’t deny this.
“How long was I out?” I ask, turning my attention to our surroundings and focusing on something I can control. Assessing the situation we’re in so that I can come up with a plan.
Except there isn’t much to see. Only one small window positioned high in the van’s back door. Impossibly small. It only lets light in. Nothing out.
“I don’t know. I woke up hours ago.”
“They have to stop eventually,” I say, more to myself than her.
“Yeah, so they stop. Then what? Those doors aren’t going to open until we reach wherever it is they’re taking us. And at that point . . .” Her voice fades.
I grimace, release a slow breath against the unremitting agony of my bound wings. “I’m not giving up. I’ve got fire, and you can make yourself invisible.” If she could focus her talent and not cave in to her fear. “There’s no reason anyone should be able to take us down.”
“And yet they did.” Miram arches a fine eyebrow, as tan and nondescript as the rest of her. The ridges of her nose shiver with angry breath as she glares at me. “So, genius, how are we getting out of this?”
Will. The thought of him is there again, but I don’t say it. Don’t dare. Why would I want to plant that hope? Even in myself. I have no idea where he is, why he didn’t meet me. For now, I need to rely on me.
I shake my head. Still, I can’t stop the longing from creeping in. He has to know. By now—he has to have heard of the fire-breather his father captured.
It’s this that keeps me calm as we hurl headlong into the hazy realm of my nightmares, the wind buffeting the van and sending shudders up my body.
They don’t stop for us. Not to feed us or offer us a chance to relieve ourselves. But then why would they afford us such a simple courtesy? We’re just animals to them.
The van is hot and suffocating, an airless metal box rumbling along dispassionately.
Miram and I lie on our sides, roasting on the hot metal floor like two parched fish tossed from the sea, desperate to return to water. We’ve long since stopped speaking to each other, too miserable with our bound hands and hobbled wings.
I can’t move without spiking pain through my body. I continually lick my cracked lips, swallow against the misery of my dry mouth. Breathing fire seriously depleted me. My insides are shriveling up, desperate for water.
But I haven’t quit. I’m reserving my strength, waiting for the van doors to open so that I might burst free in a blaze of fire.
I tell myself this. Believing I can summon enough fire is harder to do.
I no longer feel my wings. I try not to think about that, about what that might mean. It can’t be good. Lying on my side, my arms pressed close to my chest, they burn, tingle with pinpricks of pain.
The van slows. I slide a bit as the vehicle turns.
We stop. I can’t even summon much excitement. We’ve already stopped before. No one opened the door to check on us. They just gassed up, did whatever they had to do for themselves, and left us roasting in the back.
It doesn’t mean the doors will open now. Still . . .
I lift my head and whisper Miram’s name, just to make sure she’s awake. The sound comes out a croak. She doesn’t respond. Doesn’t move. I drag myself closer and nudge one of her sleek legs with my foot. “Miram!”
She moans and cracks her eyes open. “What?”
“We’ve stopped.”
“So?” she rasps.
I c**k my head, listening as the driver and passenger doors slam open and shut. Voices. The words are indecipherable.
She struggles to a sitting position, pushing up, using her bound arms for leverage. “Think we’re here?” She asks this so listlessly that I’m not sure she would even care if that were the case.
I shake my head, my every agonized muscle braced, pulled tight, thrumming in readiness. My ears strain, following the sound of their tread, the crunch of gravel beneath their feet as they circle the van. One laughs, the sound fading as they walk away, leave the van. Leave us.
After a moment I release my breath, unaware that I had been holding it. “They’re gone,” I whisper, then, realizing there’s no need, I repeat louder, “They’re gone.”
“Probably to feed their fat faces,” she mutters. “I would kill for something to eat.”
With a sigh, she settles back down on the van floor. I look at her. Really look at her. Always small, she appears emaciated, her face gaunt, her breath raspy. Her chest lifts high, laboring for each breath. Maybe my time in the desert prepared me for this. Arid heat. Discomfort. Misery. Because Miram isn’t holding up well, and she didn’t even take a harpoon to the wing.
I have to get her out of here. Soon. Or these hunters will be arriving at their destination with one dead draki.
Suddenly there’s a sharp sound at the door. I spring to a crouch, a surge of adrenaline staving off the pain. Something scrapes against the metal door. The scratch of metal raises the tiny hairs on my nape. My gaze drills into the doors. I inhale, readying myself, letting heat build and gather at my core.
Weak and parched as I am, the effort nauseates me, leaves me shaking and wasted. I’m not at full strength, but it has to be enough. I’ll get only one chance. I have to be ready for whoever opens that door.
“Miram,” I say, wishing she could get it together and make herself invisible—and hold it. “Get ready.”
She gives a small nod.
Curling steam wafts from my nose.
I part my lips, staring so hard at the door my eyes start to ache. There’s a thud followed by a sucking sound as the door pulls open. My heart clenches in my smoldering chest. Midday light pours inside the van in liquid-hot rays, momentarily blinding me. I don’t care though—can’t hesitate and lose my chance.
I reach deep, find smoldering heat where I feared none was left. Fire heats my windpipe, bursts free in a gust of flame. It’s enough.
The figure outlined in the afternoon light dives to the ground with a cry.
I jump from the van and manage to keep my balance on unsteady legs—especially hard to do with my hands and wings bound.
I bend down to search the hunter’s pockets for a weapon, something to cut into the binding on my wrists. And I freeze.
It’s not one of the several hard-eyed, black-clad hunters who trussed me up like a holiday goose and tossed me into the back of a van. It’s Will.
A sharp, strangled sound rises from the back of my throat. I choke his name, a sound he can’t possibly comprehend.
But he doesn’t need to understand. He knows. He’s here for me. That’s all that matters. And that I didn’t incinerate him.
He’s on his feet, sliding his hands up my trembling arms as if verifying that I’m real, that I’m before him. “Jacinda!”
Relief rushes over me. My adrenaline takes a dive, and the pain and weariness flood back, closing me in a clenching, unrelenting fist. I give in, collapse in his arms—let him rescue me, save me from his kind, from the agony that screams through every particle of my being.
Will carefully wraps an arm around me, looking over my shoulder at my strapped wings. I feel his wince as he takes measure.
Anxiety radiates from him, underlies his movements as he handles me, trying to guide me away from the van. His changeable eyes dart, scan the mostly vacant truck-stop parking lot.
I hold back, peer inside the van. “Miram,” I say, the urgency sharp in my voice. “Let’s go.”
She hovers in the far shadows, where the sunlight doesn’t reach, fiercely shaking her head side to side.
“Miram!” I repeat her name, sounding like a parent addressing a child that refuses to obey.
She shakes her head harder, her eyes fixed on Will. “I won’t go with him.”
“Don’t be stupid. He’s here to help us—”
“What if it’s a trap? What if he’s just tricking you into going along meekly, like a lamb to the slaughter?”
“Do you even know how ridiculous you sound? Why would they do that? We’re already their prisoners.” I move between the van’s open doors, beseeching her with my eyes. Still, she shakes her head, shrinks back against the far wall as if I were the threat. “You’ll risk remaining in this van rather than going with us?”
Will tugs on my arm. “Jacinda! They’ll be back any second. This is our only chance!”
“Miram, please,” I beg. “Trust me.”
She jerks her chin once at Will. “I don’t trust him.” Then her eyes fix steadily on me. “Or you.”
Anger sparks my blood. She doesn’t trust me. She’s the one who’s been spying on me!
Will’s voice falls hard near my ear. His fingers flex on my arm, no longer so gentle. “Jacinda, they’re coming!”
I go. Tearing myself away, I leave her.
But not without her wide, haunted eyes imprinted on my soul.
Chapter 19
Will drags me across the parking lot. It’s an odd sensation. Running in broad daylight in full manifest in the human world. Such a strange, forbidden thing. Anyone could see me.
Not that I have a choice.
It’s either stay in the van, a prisoner awaiting execution, or risk the fifteen-second dash to the shelter of the waiting woods. For me, it’s an obvious choice. Why couldn’t Miram see that, too?
Will and I dive into the thick growth of trees edging the parking lot. One moment cracked asphalt burns beneath my feet, the next it’s the yielding, whispering soil of the forest floor.
A sense of desolation rises up inside me, suffocating. I look over my shoulder as if I can see the van through the press of foliage.
I’ve left Miram. I’ve failed her. Failed Cassian.
I blink stinging eyes and tell myself it’s the sudden sunlight. The sweeping, incomprehensible pain hammering my body. Not this invading sorrow for the girl I left behind and what will become of her.
Will’s Land Rover isn’t far. He helps me inside. I prop myself on the passenger seat, mindful to sit forward. It’s impossible to lean back with my wings bound tight.
There’s a flash of light in Will’s hand and I realize he’s holding a knife. He swipes through my wrist ties and I sigh. Except the relief is brief, eclipsed as feeling rushes back into my hands in a searing flood of agony. I moan. Drop my head.
Will hands me a bottle of water and moves to check my back, his fingers gentle on my bare shoulders. I drink deep, noisily, water running down my chin and throat.
Over my gulps, I hear his sharp intake of breath as he saws through the bindings. “You’re hurt.” A curse follows this, humming with an anger I’ve never heard from him. And something else. Regret? Guilt?