"It's all very well to be so infernally polite. But this sort of thing

wakes you up impolitely, and makes you ask impolite questions. I suppose

I've seen men die by dozens--so have you--seen them die as if they

enjoyed it, and seen them foaming at the mouth, kicking against

death--and I can't say it particularly staggered my belief in my Maker.

But when it comes to the women, somehow it seems more polite not to

believe in him than to believe that he does these damnable things on

purpose."

Stanistreet closed his eyes to shut out the sight of Tyson and his

eternal cigar, and the slow monotonous movement of his lips. His friend's

theological views were not exactly the supreme interest of the moment.

"Down there in the desert" (Tyson seemed to dream as he raised his eyes

to the great map of the Soudan that hung above the chimney-piece), "where

there's no end to the sand and the sky, and man's nothing and woman less

than nothing, this curious belief in the infinite seems the natural

thing; it simply possesses you. You know the feeling? But here it gets

crowded out somehow; it's too big for these little houses we've got to

live in, and work in, and die in. It's beastly business thinking, though.

I fancy old Tennyson got very near the mark-"'Perplexed in faith, but pure in deeds.

At last he beat his music out;

There lives more faith in honest doubt,

Believe me, than in half--'"

There was a sharp bitter cry, stifled in the instant of its utterance,

and Tyson started to his feet. His mouth worked convulsively. "My God!

I don't care who's responsible for this filthy world. Nobody but a fiend

could take that little thing and torture her so. Think of it, Louis!"

"I'm trying not to think of it. It's damnable as you say, but--other

women have to stand it."

"Other women!" Tyson flung the words out like an execration that throbbed

with his scorn and loathing of the sex. Other women! By an act of his

will he had put his wife on a high pedestal for the moment--made her

shine, for the moment, white and fair above the contemptible herd, her

obscure multitudinous sisterhood. Other women! The phrase had an

undertone of dull passionate self-reproach that was distinctly audible

to Stanistreet's finer ear. Stanistreet knew many things about

Tyson--knew, for instance, the cause that but for this would have taken

him up to town; and Tyson knew that he knew.

If it came to that, Stanistreet too had some grounds for self-reproach.

He took up a book and tried to read; but the words reeled and staggered

and grew dim before him; he found himself listening to the ticking of the

clock, and the pulse of time became a woman's heart beating violently

with pain, a heart indistinguishable from his own. Other women (it was he

who had used the words)--was it simply by her share in their grim lot

that Mrs. Nevill Tyson had contrived to invest herself with this somber

significance? Perhaps. It was the same woman that he had driven with,

laughed with, flirted with a hundred times--the woman that in the natural

course of things (Tyson apart) he would infallibly have made love to; and

yet in one day and one night her prettinesses, her impertinences had

fallen from her like a frivolous garment, leaving only the simple eternal

lines of her womanhood. Henceforth, whatever he might think, he would not

think of her to-morrow as he had thought yesterday; whatever he felt

to-morrow, his feeling would never lose that purifying touch of tragic

pity. Mrs. Nevill Tyson would never be the same woman that he had known

before. And yet--she was a fool, a fool; and he doubted if her sufferings

would make her any wiser.




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