Presently Beatrice put down the child, and went to join Vera in the

scullery. There came the low sound of women's talking--an angry, ominous

sound. Gwen followed her mother. Her little voice could be heard

cautiously asking: 'Mam, is dad cross--is he? What did he do?' 'Don't bother!' snapped Vera. 'You _are_ a little nuisance! Here, take

this into the dining-room, and don't drop it.' The child did not obey. She stood looking from her mother to her sister.

The latter pushed a dish into her hand.

'Go along,' she said, gently thrusting the child forth.

Gwen departed. She hesitated in the kitchen. Her father still remained

unmoved. The child wished to go to him, to speak to him, but she was

afraid. She crossed the kitchen slowly, hugging the dish; then she came

slowly back, hesitating. She sidled into the kitchen; she crept round

the table inch by inch, drawing nearer her father. At about a yard from

the chair she stopped. He, from under his bent brows, could see her

small feet in brown slippers, nearly kicked through at the toes, waiting

and moving nervously near him. He pulled himself together, as a man does

who watches the surgeon's lancet suspended over his wound. Would the

child speak to him? Would she touch him with her small hands? He held

his breath, and, it seemed, held his heart from beating. What he should

do he did not know.

He waited in a daze of suspense. The child shifted from one foot to

another. He could just see the edge of her white-frilled drawers. He

wanted, above all things, to take her in his arms, to have something

against which to hide his face. Yet he was afraid. Often, when all the

world was hostile, he had found her full of love, he had hidden his face

against her, she had gone to sleep in his arms, she had been like a

piece of apple-blossom in his arms. If she should come to him now--his

heart halted again in suspense--he knew not what he would do. It would

open, perhaps, the tumour of his sickness. He was quivering too fast

with suspense to know what he feared, or wanted, or hoped.

'Gwen!' called Vera, wondering why she did not return. 'Gwen!' 'Yes,' answered the child, and slowly Siegmund saw her feet lifted,

hesitate, move, then turn away.

She had gone. His excitement sank rapidly, and the sickness returned

stronger, more horrible and wearying than ever. For a moment it was so

bad that he was afraid of losing consciousness. He recovered slightly,

pulled himself up, and went upstairs. His fists were tightly clenched,

his fingers closed over his thumbs, which were pressed bloodless. He lay

down on the bed.




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