Dora went to lie down on one of the Jenny Lind twin beds, careful to leave her shoes off the patchwork quilt. She rested her forearm across her forehead, blocking the light. Her brain told her to jump up and help Lucille with Nate, but her body wouldn’t budge from the soft mattress. She felt as though she were slipping back in time, back to when she was young and on vacation at Mamaw’s house and didn’t have a worry and could sleep in bed for as long as she wanted.
Silence returned and slowly her muscles relaxed. Lucille was a patient woman, she rationalized, who had dealt with Nate’s outbursts since his birth. Just a few minutes more and she’d get up and help. It had been a very tough day for the little guy. He didn’t like change and he’d sensed something was up from the moment he awoke and spotted the suitcases in the hallway.
“No, no, no, no, no!”
Dora groaned, recognizing the fury in Nate’s voice. No way Lucille could handle what Dora knew was the beginning of a full-blown tantrum. This was the real reason why she had not wanted to move Nate from the library. She should have explained right away to Carson that Nate had autism and that the library was the room Nate was accustomed to sleeping in, with his favorite books and the Nintendo he adored. How he had already been frazzled by the move to Mamaw’s house.
Then the sudden sound of a crash and glass breaking forced her to her feet.
Mamaw’s eyes sprang open when she heard the crash. She’d fallen asleep with her book half-open across her lap. She simply couldn’t keep her eyes from drifting shut—no fault of the story line. She was simply tired so much of the time now that the lure of sleep and dreams proved overpowering.
She tilted her head, listening intently. The child’s scream could only have come from Nate. She heard the rustle of feet on the stairs, then the voices over Nate’s screams. Lord, that boy could holler. Mamaw sat in a tense silence listening to the uproar across the hall. In time the screaming subsided and she heard again the retreating footfalls in the hall. There was a knock on the door and the crack of light as it opened.
“Mamaw? Are you awake?”
“Carson? Lord, yes, I’m awake. No one could sleep through that racket.”
She heard Carson’s throaty chuckle as she walked across the bedroom in her long-legged gait, pausing to flick on a small lamp. Warm light flooded the room, revealing Carson in a long summer shift of fiery oranges and yellows. Carson had inherited Mamaw’s long, lean body. Mamaw smiled and reached her arms out to her.
Carson drew near and bent to kiss her cheek.
“Mmm . . . I love your perfume,” Carson said, closing her eyes. “I feel like I’ve always known this scent. Kind of musky. I always think of you and this scent as inseparable.”
Mamaw felt a twinge in her heart and stroked Carson’s long hair. “It’s Bal à Versailles. Actually, my dear, it was your mother’s scent. She gave me my first bottle and I’ve worn it ever since.”
Carson’s tanned face paled a shade and she slunk down to her knees beside Mamaw’s chair.
“It was my mother’s scent?” she asked with wonder. “How did I never know that?”
Mamaw shrugged lightly. “I can’t say. We speak so seldom of Sophie. She always wore this perfume. She was French, of course,” she added, as though that explained it.
“There’s so much I don’t know about her,” Carson said in a soft voice.
Mamaw patted Carson’s hand. Oh, child, she wanted to tell her. There is so very much you don’t know about your mother.
“The bottle is on my bathroom counter. Why don’t you try it? The scent is very particular about who can wear it. It must be the patchouli or the musk. It might smell very different on you. But if you like it, I’ll give you the bottle. I’d like to think we share a scent, chérie.”
Another shout of “No!” pierced the air.
“What is all that ruckus about?” Mamaw cried.
Carson rose to her feet. “Nate’s freaking out because we told Dora he had to sleep in one of the twin beds in her room. He was in the library.”
“Harper is meant to sleep there.”
“That’s what I told her.”
“Dora does have her hands full, doesn’t she? She ought to get more help with Nate, especially now that Cal has left. Poor dear, she’s exhausted.”
“I hardly recognized her. I thought she looked older.”
“Yes, well, it’s her weight, too. Nothing adds years to your looks like letting your figure go. Perhaps you could encourage her to go on a diet. Exercise more. You’re her sister, after all.”
“Oh no, I’m not going there.”
“Well, you could try,” Mamaw said persistently. “It’s that big house that’s weighing her down.”
Carson rolled her eyes. “And Cal . . .”
“Hush now. You mustn’t mention the divorce while she’s here. She’s very sensitive. She needs our support now, more than ever.”
From the hall, the screaming took on the rising crescendo of a supersonic jet taking off. Mamaw felt her heart skip a beat. She threw up her hands and said in a shaky voice, “Hurry and tell Dora to let that poor child sleep in the library if it means that much to him. I’ll figure something else out for Harper. I simply cannot listen to that boy scream any longer! My birthday party will end up being my funeral!”
Dora ran across the hall into the library to find Lucille holding a squirming Nate tight and speaking to him in a low voice. Nate was inconsolable, flailing his arms wildly. Before Dora could reach them, Nate’s hand belted Lucille in the nose. She fell back, hands against her shocked face. Nate’s face registered not even a flash of acknowledgment that he’d hurt Lucille. Instead he spied his mother, pointed at her, and shouted, “You said to sleep here. I always sleep here at the beach!”
Dora looked at Nate’s wide blue eyes, more terror-struck than angry. She walked slowly up to Nate and spoke in a low, soothing voice. She reassured him with instructions. “Yes, Nate, you’re sleeping at the beach house. But tonight you’re sleeping in Mama’s room, okay? We will bring your Nintendo to Mama’s room. All right?”
“No!” Nate shouted at the top of his lungs.
From over her shoulder Dora saw Carson standing beside Lucille, her eyes wide with shock and incomprehension. Dora turned back to Nate, relieved that he allowed her to put her arms around him as she continued the soothing litany, knowing he would respond more to her tone than the words. Dora didn’t have time or even the desire to explain autism to Carson. It was like when Nate had a meltdown in the grocery store. People would rudely stop and stare at his head banging or whining, looking at her with critical eyes as though she were a bad parent, as though it were within her power to rein him in.