She sniffed and, to her apparent chagrin, another tear slipped out. She dropped her head forward to hide behind her hair in the way he’d noticed she did when she was uncomfortable or embarrassed.
Circenn moved swiftly, intending to catch the tear upon his finger, kiss it away, then kiss away all her pain and fear, and assure her that he would permit no harm to touch her and would spend his life making things up to her; but she dropped the flask onto the table and turned swiftly.
“Please, leave me alone,” she said and turned away from him.
“Let me comfort you, Lisa,” he entreated.
“Leave me alone.”
For the first time in his life, Circenn felt utterly helpless. Let her grieve, his heart instructed. She would need to grieve, for discovering that the flask didn’t work was tantamount to lowering her mother into a solitary grave. She would grieve her mother as if she’d in truth died that very day. May God forgive me, he prayed. I did not know what I was doing when I cursed that flask. He snatched the flask from the table, tucked it into his sporran, and left the room.
* * *
And that was that, Lisa admitted, curling up on the bed and pulling the curtains tight. In her cozy nest all she lacked was her stuffed Tigger and her mother’s shoulder to cry on, but such comforts would never again be hers. As long as she hadn’t tried the flask, she’d been able to pin all her hopes on it. She’d been astonished by Circenn’s reaction to her confession—she’d glimpsed a kindred moisture in his eyes.
You’re falling, Lisa, her heart said softly, for more than a country.
Good thing, she told her heart acerbically, because it looks like he’s all I’ve got, for now and forever.
She glanced around the curtained bed and snuggled deeper into the covers. The fire made her chamber toasty, and there was a flask of cider wine in a cubbyhole in the headboard. As she took a deep swallow, savoring the spicy, fruity taste, she gave in to her grief. Her mother would die alone and there was nothing Lisa could do to prevent it. She drank and cried until she was too exhausted to do more than roll onto her side and slip into the gentle, wine-induced oblivion of sleep.
All I wanted was to hold her hand when she died was her last thought before dreaming.
* * *
Circenn Brodie stood beside the bed and watched Lisa sleep. He parted the filmy bed curtains and stepped close, dropping his hand to lightly touch her hair. Curled on her side, she’d folded both hands beneath one cheek, like a child. The faded red bill of her bonnet—base ball cap, he reminded himself—was crushed between her hands and a plaid she’d bunched up into a pillow of sorts. She had clearly cried herself to sleep, and it looked as if she had fought a losing battle with her covers. Gently, he eased the plaid away from her neck so she wouldn’t strangle herself with it, then straightened the fabric twisted about her legs. She sighed and snuggled deeper into the soft mattress. Removing the wineskin from where it was nestled close to her side, he winced when he discovered it was empty, although he understood what had driven her to drink it.
She had been seeking oblivion, a quest he’d embarked upon a time or two himself
She was lost. Torn from her home. Stranded in the middle of a century she couldn’t possibly understand.
And it was his fault.
He would marry her, help her adjust, protect her from discovery—and most of all, protect her from Adam Black. One way or another, he promised himself firmly, he would make her smile again and win her heart. She was everything Brude and more. His mother would have loved this woman.
“Sleep with the angels, my Brude queen,” he said softly. But come back. This devil needs you like he’s never needed anything before.
As he turned to leave he spared a last glance over his shoulder. A faint smile curved his lips as he recalled her fascination with whipped cream. He hoped one day she would trust him, desire him enough to allow him to take his spoonful of whipped cream, trail it across her lovely body, and remove the sweet confection with his tongue.
He would heal her. With his love.
And he would never die on her—that he could promise.
* * *
“What’s wrong?” Galan asked, taking one look at Circenn’s grim expression as he entered the Greathall.
The laird dropped himself heavily into a chair and picked up a flask of cider wine, absently turning it in his hands.
“Is it Lisa?” Duncan asked swiftly. “What happened? I thought the two of you were … growing closer.”
“I gave her the flask,” Circenn grunted, barely intelligible.
“You what?” Galan roared, leaping from the chair. “You made her like you?”