“How can you two even manage to do that? You spend almost all of your time apart.”
He grinned. “She’s my soul mate. I know it.”
“I don’t think soul mates are real,” I said, examining my shoes. “You happened to meet a French princess because you only ever meet royalty, and you like her more than anyone else. Your true soul mate could be milking a cow right now, and you’d never know.”
“You’re always so down on her.” His tone made the invisible rubber band stretch again.
“I’m simply discussing possibilities.”
“In the meantime, you have dozens of possibilities in front of you and refuse to look at them.”
I snorted. “Did Dad put you up to this?”
“No! I think you should look at this with an open mind. You’re one of the most isolated people in the country, but that doesn’t mean your walls have to be up all the time. You need to experience a romantic relationship at least once in your life.”
“Hey! I’ve experienced romantic relationships!”
“A picture in the paper does not count as a relationship,” he said heatedly. “Neither does making out with Leron Troyes at that Christmas ball in Paris.”
I gasped. “How do you know about that?”
“Everyone knows about that.”
“Even Mom and Dad?”
“Dad doesn’t know. Well, unless Mom told him, because I’m positive she does.”
I buried my face and made some screechy sound that encapsulated my complete humiliation.
“All I’m saying is, this could be good for you.”
That line pushed all the shame out of my body and replaced it with rage.
“Everyone keeps saying that: it might be good for me. What does that even mean? I’m smart and beautiful and strong. I don’t need to be rescued.”
Ahren shrugged. “Maybe not. But you never know if one of them might need to be.”
I stared at the grass, considering that. I shook my head. “What are you doing, Ahren? What’s with the sudden change of heart? I thought you were on my side.”
I saw a flicker of something in his eyes before he pushed it away and put an arm around me. “I am, Eadlyn. You, Mom, and Camille are the most important women in my life. So please understand me when I say that sometimes I wonder how happy you are.”
“I’m happy, Ahren. I’m the princess. I have everything.”
“I think you’re mistaking comfort for joy.”
His words vaguely reminded me of my recent chat with Mom.
Ahren rubbed my arm and stood, brushing off his suit. “I promised Kaden I’d help with his French lesson. Just think about all this, okay? Maybe I’m wrong. It certainly wouldn’t be the first time.” We shared a smile.
I nodded. “I’ll think about it.”
He gave me a wink. “Go on a date or something. You need to get a life.”
I stood outside the door to the Men’s Parlor pacing, worrying I was wasting time. After my talk with Ahren, I really should have gone straight to the office. Truthfully, I was looking forward to getting back to the normal monotony of shuffling papers. But his words, above anyone else’s, made me wonder if I should at least try. And not the fake trying I was planning for the cameras, but genuine effort.
I told myself that I would have to date them eventually anyway. It was the bare minimum of what I’d need to do. It didn’t mean I was choosing anyone; I was just keeping my promise to Dad and doing what the people expected.
Sighing, I handed the envelope to the butler. “Okay, go ahead.”
He bowed before he left, and I waited outside.
I’d decided I wasn’t going to barge into the Men’s Parlor again. I wanted the Selected to be on their toes, but everyone needed a retreat now and then. I knew that better than anybody.
A moment later the butler returned, holding the door as Hale stepped out. Two things passed through my head as he approached. First, I wondered what Kile would think, which, admittedly, was odd. Second, it was obvious Hale still didn’t know what to make of me, because he was very cautious as he came to a stop about two feet away and bowed. “Your Highness.”
I clasped my hands in front of me. “You may call me Eadlyn.”
There was a hint of a smile in his eyes. “Eadlyn.”
No one in the world is as powerful as you.
“I was wondering if you’d like to join me for dessert tonight after dinner.”
“Just you and me?”
I sighed. “Was there someone else you wanted to invite? Do you need a translator as well?”
“No, no!” he said, a real smile coming across his face. “I’m just . . . pleasantly surprised, I guess.”
“Oh.” It was a pathetic response to such a sweet admission, but I simply wasn’t prepared.
Hale stood there, his hands jammed in his pockets, beaming, and it was hard to think of him as another person I’d just send home.
“Umm, anyway, I’ll come by your room about twenty minutes after dinner, and we’ll go to one of the parlors upstairs.”
“Sounds great. See you tonight.”
I started walking. “See you tonight.”
I was a little bothered because I was looking forward to it now. His anticipation was kind of cute. But worse than the feeling that the Selection was getting to me was the triumphant look on Hale’s face when he caught me peeking back at him.
CHAPTER 14
WOULD IT BE STRANGE IF I changed dresses between dinner and dessert? Was he going to change clothes? I’d been wearing tiaras for the last few days, but was it inappropriate if I wore one on a date?
On a date.
This was too far out of my comfort zone. I felt so vulnerable, which I couldn’t understand. I had interacted with plenty of young men. I did have that spectacular interlude with Leron at that Christmas party, and Jamison Akers fed me a strawberry lip-to-lip hidden behind a tree at a picnic. I’d even made it through last night with Kile, though that was nothing close to a real date.
I had met all thirty-five of the Selected candidates and stood tall through every minute. Not to mention, I helped run an entire country. Why was one date with one boy making me so anxious?
I decided that, yes, I would change, and I put on a yellow dress that was longer in the back than in the front, which I paired with a navy belt so it looked a little less I’m-ready-for-the-garden-party and a little more let’s-go-out. And no tiara. Why had I even considered it?