The long-looked-for letters came after a weary interval of expectation,

the more trying to Ermine because the weather had been so bitter that

Colin could not shake off his cold, nor venture beyond his own fireside,

where Rose daily visited him, and brought home accounts that did not

cheer her aunt.

Edward wrote shortly to his sister, as if almost annoyed at the shower

of letters that had by every post begun to recall his attention from

some new invention on the means of assaying metals:-"I am sorry you have stirred up Keith to the renewal of this painful

subject. You know I considered that page in my life as closed for ever,

and I see nothing that would compensate for what it costs me even to

think of it. To redeem my name before the world would be of no avail

to me now, for all my English habits are broken, and all that made life

valuable to me is gone. If Long and Beauchamp could reject my solemn

affirmation three years ago, what would a retractation slowly wrung from

them be worth to me now? It might once have been, but that is all over

now. Even the desire to take care of you would no longer actuate me

since you have Keith again; and in a few years I hope to make my child

independent in money matters--independent of your love and care you

would not wish her to be. Forget the troubles of your life, Ermine, and

be happy with your faithful Keith, without further efforts on behalf of

one whom they only harass and grieve."

Ermine shed some bitter tears over this letter, the more sorrowful

because the refusal was a shock to her own reliance on his honour, and

she felt like a traitress to his cause. And Colin would give him up

after this ungrateful indifference, if nothing worse. Surely it betrayed

a consciousness that the whole of his conduct would not bear inquiry,

and she thought of the representations that she had so indignantly

rejected, that the accounts, even without the last fatal demand, were

in a state that it required an excess of charity to ascribe to mere

carelessness on the part of the principal.

She was glad that Alison was absent, and Rose in the garden. She laid

her head on her little table, and drew long sobs of keen suffering,

the reaction from the enjoyment and hope of the last few months. And

so little knew she what she ought to ask, that she could only strive to

say, "Thy will be done."

"Ermine! my Ermine, this is not a thing to be so much taken to heart.

This foolish philosopher has not even read his letters. I never saw any

one more consistently like himself."




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