He smiled deprecatingly.

"Dreadful to be such a weakling, isn't it?" he said.

"Hush. Don't talk, like that. It's all going away. Strength is coming.

You'll soon be your old self. But you've got to look forward all the

time."

Hermione spoke with a warmth, an energy that braced. She spoke to Artois,

but Maurice, eager to grasp at any comfort, strove to take the words to

himself. This evening the climax of his Sicilian tragedy must come. And

then? Beyond, might there not be the calm, the happiness of a sane life?

He must look forward, he would look forward.

But when he looked, there stood Maddalena weeping.

He hated himself. He loved happiness, he longed for it, but he knew he

had lost his right to it, if any man ever has such a right. He had

created suffering. How dared he expect, how dared he even wish, to escape

from suffering?

"Now, Emile," Hermione said, "you have really got to go in and lie down

whether you feel sleepy or not. Don't protest. Maurice and I have hardly

seen anything of each other yet. We want to get rid of you."

She spoke laughingly, and laughingly he obeyed her. When she had settled

him comfortably in the sitting-room she came out again to the terrace

where her husband was standing, looking towards the sea. She had a rug

over her arm and was holding two cushions.

"I thought you and I might go down and take our siesta under the

oak-trees, Maurice. Would you like that?"

He was longing to get away, to go up to the heap of stones on the

mountain-top and set a match to the fragments of Hermione's letter, which

the dangerous wind might disturb, might bring out into the light of day.

But he acquiesced at once. He would go later--if not this afternoon, then

at night when he came back from the sea. They went down and spread the

rug under the shadow of the oaks.

"I used to read to Gaspare here," he said. "When you were away in

Africa."

"What did you read?"

"The Arabian Nights."

She stretched herself on the rug.

"To lie here and read the Arabian Nights! And you want to go away,

Maurice?"

"I think it's time to go. If I stayed too long here I should become fit

for nothing."

"Yes, that's true, I dare say. But--Maurice, it's so strange--I have a

feeling as if you would always be in Sicily. I know it's absurd, and yet

I have it. I feel as if you belonged to Sicily, and Sicily did not mean

to part from you."




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