"You do know."

He was too absorbed to notice the new maturity in her face, the brooding

maternity born of a profound passion. To Elizabeth just then he was not

a man, her man, daily deciding matters of life and death, but a worried

boy, magnifying a trifle into importance.

"There is always gossip," she said, "and the only thing one can do is to

forget it at once. You ought to be too big for that sort of thing."

"But--suppose it is true?"

"What difference would it make?"

He made a quick movement toward her.

"There may be more than that. I don't know, Elizabeth," he said, his

eyes on hers. "I have always thought--I can't go to David now."

He was moved to go on. To tell her of his lost youth, of that strange

trick by which his mind had shut off those hidden years. But he could

not. He had a perfectly human fear of being abnormal in her eyes,

precisely but greatly magnified the same instinct which had made him

inspect his new tie in daylight for fear it was too brilliant. But

greater than that was his new fear that something neither happy nor

right lay behind him under lock and key in his memory.

"I want you to know this, Dick," she said. "That nothing, no gossip or

anything, can make any difference to me. And I've been terribly hurt.

We've been such friends. You--I've been lying awake at night, worrying."

That went to his heart first, and then to his head. This might be all,

all he was ever to have. This hour, and this precious and tender child,

so brave in her declaration, so simple and direct; all his world in that

imitation mahogany chair.

"You're all I've got," he said. "The one real thing in a world that's

going to smash. I think I love you more than God."

The same mood, of accepting what he had without question and of refusing

to look ahead, actuated him for the next few days. He was incredibly

happy.

He went about his work with his customary care and thoroughness, for

long practice had made it possible for him to go on as though nothing

had happened, to listen to querulous complaints and long lists of

symptoms, and to write without error those scrawled prescriptions which

were, so hopefully, to cure. Not that Dick himself believed greatly in

those empirical doses, but he considered that the expectation of relief

was half the battle. But that was the mind of him, which went about

clothed in flesh, of course, and did its daily and nightly work, and put

up a very fair imitation of Doctor Richard Livingstone. But hidden away

was a heart that behaved in a highly unprofessional manner, and sang

and dreamed, and jumped at the sight of a certain small figure on the

street, and generally played hob with systole and diastole, and the

vagus and accelerator nerves. Which are all any doctor really knows

about the heart, until he falls in love.




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