So, with Numi nodding off next to me, I study the grisly facts before me. By now, I’ve become numb to seeing my own brother’s mutilated corpse before me. Numb, yes, but no less horrified, no less traumatized.

No less fucked up.

I close my eyes and see my brother in the park that day. I hear him laughing and playing, asking where the ball went to. I remember waving him off. Too preoccupied with the pretty girls to concern myself about my brother’s safety. Had the bastard been waiting in the bushes? Had he lured my brother away by pointing to a spot where the ball had gone? Had the bastard grabbed him instantly, covering his little mouth, even while my brother kicked and fought and tried to scream?

I rub my eyes again. Something I have done all my life.

Whoever took my brother also took much from me, from my mother, from my family. From my very belief in goodness.

There is no good. Not with this fucker in the world.

And not with me in the world, either.

When I’m done rubbing my now-wet eyes, I find them resting on the latest victim. The teenage, overweight Latino boy with the creamy goo oozing from his mouth. I shudder at the image but don’t turn away.

Never turn away, I think. Ever.

“You should be asleep,” says Numi. I hear him sit up.

“And my brother should be alive and celebrating his thirty-first birthday.”

“I’m not sure one relates to the other.”

“It does,” I say, “to me.”

“You are not much use to anyone unless—”

“Unless I rest, I know, Numi. Except I don’t feel like resting. I feel like finding this motherfucker and tearing his goddamn throat out. Then I can die happy. And, yes, Numi, I am dying. But not until I find him. I am going to stay alive just long enough to watch him die.”

Numi says nothing. I hear him breathing evenly, easily. His lungs are perfect. His lungs work as lungs should work.

“Are you hungry, Mr. Man?”

I laugh. “You always do that.”

“Do what?”

“Say just the right thing to talk me down.”

“What did I say?”

“Never mind. Yes, I’m hungry.”

“Not too many places are open,” he says, “in the middle of the night.”

“Fred 62 is open,” I say. I look at the dead Hispanic boy again. “I’ll take some cherry cheesecake.”

Numi looks from the crime-scene photos to me, and then shrugs. “Whatever floats your boat, bossman. Be back soon.”

He leaves me alone with the dead.

CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE

“Angel,” I say to myself.

It is the name of the Hispanic boy. Angel Trujillo. Pronounced in Spanish, it would be Ahn-hell. Much like the original name of Los Angeles. La Ciudad de Los Angeles.

The City of Angels.

Lost Angels, I think.

And Angel Trujillo had been an angel, by all counts. So why in the devil would the killer stuff cheesecake into his mouth? Was he mocking the boy about being overweight?

And what does this clue have to do with the others? My kid brother had an “8” carved onto his chest. Olivia had a pepperoni in one hand and a square carved in the palm of her other. The fact that the dimensions of each side of the square were exactly the same hadn’t escaped me.

No, the only thing that had escaped me was what it all meant.

Then again, could the killer be insane?

No, I think. He’s telling a story here. What that story is, I don’t know. But the clues are here. The clues to his identity are here. I know this deeply within me. I have been in similar situations before. Faced with clues, with patterns, it’s only a matter of time before the answer seeps into my forebrain.

In fact, I am a firm believer that my subconscious already knows the answer. Has already solved the riddle.

Tell me, goddamn it. Tell me before I die.

One thing I am certain of is that this is a game intended for me.

For me and me alone.

Jesus.

Outside, through the sliding glass doors, I see the branches of the cursed eucalyptus trees sway. Somewhere in my apartment building, I hear a child crying. Or maybe I’m imagining the crying. Truth is, I can’t entirely trust my senses these days. Truth is, I’m not entirely sure that I’m not steadily going crazy. My brain seems to be suffering from a lack of oxygen, but that could be my imagination. Other than the lamp next to me, the darkness around me seems suffused with light particles that dance and morph and boogie.

Yes, I’m going crazy.

There is also a buzzing in my ear. A new buzzing. It wasn’t there a few days before. But now it is here, and it sounds like a small bug is burrowing its way through my eardrum.

Dying sucks, I think.

I close my eyes and the dancing light particles are still there. The buzzing is still there. I can’t escape my own dying body. I also see the luminescent shadow—yes, an oxymoron, but that’s what I think of it as—of the small shadow standing at the periphery of my mind’s eye. Standing in the shadows… waiting. For what, I don’t know.

In my mind’s eye, I also see the clues. But here, I can turn them around, rearrange them, superimpose them.…

I do that now, hoping a pattern emerges, hoping that I see something that I had previously missed, that this new perspective shines a new light… but nothing.

But I can’t hold the images for long. Soon, they morph and swirl into other people and objects, and soon they are nothing more than splintered light racing through my mind.

I am not just dying but deteriorating, breaking down. My brain no longer functions as it used to. I suspect I am not giving it enough oxygen. I should be on a ventilator. Or, more accurately, an oxygen cannula.

Then again, I should be out there hunting down this guy. Chasing down clues and witnesses. Not sitting here in a chair, dying, commanding my oxygen-starved brain to make sense of something that seems entirely nonsensical.

I fall asleep with the images of the dead in front of me, and with my own mind so scattered and gone that I am not here, not in this world.

Sleep is a blessing.

CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR

“This is all I could find, cowboy,” says Numi.

I’m still sitting in the chair. Still propped up by the cushions. I come back to this earth slowly, regretfully, emerging back into this diseased, dying body… unwillingly.

Numi has returned with a Sara Lee cherry cheesecake. It takes me a while to fully return to the conscious thought of replying to him. I stare at him a long moment, wondering briefly where I am, who the tall black man is before me, and why there are dead people lined up on easels before me.




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