“This sandwich is huge,” I said. “Do you want half?”
“Oh, I couldn’t.”
But I insisted and then she invited me to join her. Ashley was also a sophomore and also new in town. Her father, she said, was a renowned surgeon. Her mother was a lawyer.
If life were a movie, this was the part where you’d start the music montage. Some sappy song would be playing while they flashed to Ashley and me sharing lunch, talking, laughing, looking coy, holding hands—and ending with that first chaste kiss.
That was three weeks ago.
I made it into Mr. Hill’s class just as the bell sounded. He took roll call. The bell pealed again, and it was time for first period. Ashley’s homeroom was across the hall. I waited and saw that yet again she wasn’t here.
I described Ashley before as my girlfriend. That might have been an exaggeration. We were taking it slow, I guess. We’d kissed twice—no more. I didn’t really like anyone else at my new school. I liked her. It wasn’t love. But it was also early. On the other hand, feelings like this usually diminish. That’s the truth. We like to pretend that they grow as we get closer to our new partner. But most times, it’s the opposite. We guys see that gorgeous girl and we get this big-time crush, one that makes it hard to breathe and makes us so anxious, want it so bad, that we always blow it.
If we do somehow land her, the feelings begin to diminish almost immediately. In this case, my feelings for Ashley really did grow. That was a little scary in a good way.
Then one day I came to school and Ashley was absent. I tried her cell phone, but there was no answer. She was gone the next day too. Then the next. I wasn’t sure what to do. I didn’t have her home address. I checked the name Kent online, but they must have been unlisted. In fact, there was nothing about her online at all.
Ashley had simply vanished into thin air.
Chapter 2
AN IDEA CAME TO ME during third period.
Ashley and I had only one class together—AP History with Mrs. Friedman. She was my favorite teacher so far. She was theatrical and enthusiastic. Today she was talking about how well-rounded certain historical figures were, begging us to become “Renaissance men or women.”
I hadn’t talked to her privately yet. I hadn’t talked to any of my teachers outside of class. I’d kept to myself. That was my way. I know I got “new kid” stares. One day, a group of girls were giggling in my direction. One came up to me and said, “Can I, like, have your phone number?”
Confused, I gave it to her.
Five minutes later I heard giggling and my phone vibrated. The text read: My friend thinks you’re cute. I didn’t respond.
After class, I approached Mrs. Friedman.
“Ah, Mr. Bolitar,” Mrs. Friedman said with a smile that lit up her face. “I’m glad to have you in my class.”
I wasn’t sure how to reply to that, so I went with, “Uh, thank you.”
“I never had your father,” she said, “but your uncle was one of my favorite students. You resemble him.”
My uncle. The great Myron Bolitar. I didn’t like my uncle and was really tired of hearing how swell he was. My father and my uncle were very close growing up, but then they had a major falling-out. For the last fifteen years of my dad’s life—basically from the moment I was conceived to the moment he died—the two brothers hadn’t spoken. I guess I should forgive Uncle Myron, but I’m not much in the mood.
“What can I do for you, Mr. Bolitar?”
When some teachers call you Mister or Miz, it comes across as either patronizing or too formal. Mrs. Friedman hit the right note.
“As you probably know,” I said slowly, “Ashley Kent has been absent.”
“And so she has.” Mrs. Friedman was a short woman and it took some effort for her to look all the way up at me. “You two are close.”
“We’re friends.”
“Oh, come, Mr. Bolitar. I may be old, but I see the way you look at her. Even Ms. Caldwell is upset she isn’t catching your eye.”
I reddened when she said this. Rachel Caldwell was probably the hottest girl in the school.
“Anyway,” I said, dragging out the word, “I was thinking maybe I could help her out.”
“Help her out how?”
“I thought maybe I could get her homework and then, you know, pass it on to her.”
Mrs. Friedman had been cleaning off the blackboard. Most teachers used a Smart Board, but as Mrs. Friedman liked to joke, she was “old-school—literally.” She stopped and looked at me. “Did Ashley ask you to get her homework?”
“Well, no.”
“So you just took it upon yourself?”
This was a dumb idea. Even if she did give me the homework, where would I bring it? I didn’t know where Ashley lived. “Never mind,” I said. “Thanks anyway.”
She put down the eraser. “Mr. Bolitar?”
I turned back to her.
“Do you know why Ashley Kent has been absent?”
My heart started doing a slow thud. “No, ma’am.”
“But you’re worried.”
I didn’t see any point in lying to her. “Yes, ma’am.”
“She hasn’t called you?”
“No, she hasn’t.”
“Strange.” Mrs. Friedman frowned. “All I can tell you is that I got a note saying that I shouldn’t expect Ashley back.”
“I’m not sure I understand.”
“That’s all I know,” Mrs. Friedman said. “I guess she moved away. But . . .”
Her voice trailed off.
“But what?”
“Never mind, Mr. Bolitar.” She started wiping the blackboard again. “Just . . . just be careful.”
At lunchtime I waited on line at the cafeteria.
I always figured that there would be more drama to a high school cafeteria. Yes, it was full of cliques. The jocks here were called “Lax Bros” (Lacrosse Brothers). They all had long hair, big muscles, and started every sentence with the word Yah. There was a table for the “Animes”—white kids who think they’re Asian. They loved manga comics and video games that matched. The pretty girls weren’t so much pretty as skinny with too-high heels and expensive clothes. Then there were the gamers, the hipsters, the skaters, the druggies, the geeks, the theater kids.
There didn’t seem to be much class warfare here. These kids had been together for so long that they didn’t really notice. The so-called outcasts who sat alone had been sitting alone for so many years that it wasn’t so much cruelty as habit. I wasn’t sure if that was better or worse.