Penelope nodded her acceptance of his apology.wWhoever that Lady Whistledown is," Colin said, shaking his finger at her with such vehemence that she actually lurched backward, "when she is unmasked, she will not be able to show her face in London."
Penelope delicately cleared her throat. "I didn't realize you cared so much about the opinions of society."wI don't," he retorted. "Well, not much, at least. Anyone who tells you they don't care at all is a liar and a hypocrite."
Penelope rather thought he was correct, but she was surprised he'd admitted it. It seemed men always liked to pretend that they were wholly self-contained, completely unaffected by the whims and opinions of society.
Colin leaned forward, his green eyes burning with intensity. "This isn't about me, Penelope, it's about Eloise. And if she is cast out of society, she will be crushed." He sat back,but his entire body radiated tension. "Not to mention what it would do to my mother."
Penelope let out a long breath. "I really think you're getting upset over nothing," she said.wI hope you're right," he replied, closing his eyes. He wasn't sure when he'd started to suspect that his sister might be Lady Whistledown. Probably after Lady Danbury had issued her now famous challenge.
Unlike most of London, Colin had never been terribly interested in Lady Whistledown's true identity. The column was entertaining, and he certainly read it along with everyone else, but to his mind, Lady Whistledown was simply ... Lady Whistledown, and that was all she needed to be.
But Lady Danbury's dare had started him thinking, and like the rest of the Bridgertons, once he got hold of an idea, he was fundamentally incapable of letting it go. Somehow it had occurred to him that Eloise had the perfect temperament and skills to write such a column, and then, before he could convince himself that he was crazy, he'd seen the ink spots on her fingers. Since then he'd gone nearly mad, unable to think about anything but the possibility that Eloise had a secret life.
He didn't know which irritated him more—that Eloise might be Lady Whistledown, or that she had managed to hide it from him for over a decade.
How galling, to be hoodwinked by one's sister. He liked to think himself smarter than that.
But he needed to focus on the present. Because if his suspicions were correct, how on earth were they going to deal with the scandal when she was discovered?
And she would be discovered. With all of London lusting after the thousand-pound prize, Lady Whistledown didn't stand a chance.wColin! Colin!"
He opened his eyes, wondering how long Penelope had been calling his name.wI really think you should stop worrying about Eloise," she said. "There are hundreds and hundreds of people in London. Lady Whistledown could be any one of them. Heavens, with your eye for detail"—she waggled her fingers to remind him of Eloise's ink-stained fingertips— "you could be Lady Whistledown."
He shot her a rather condescending look. "Except for the small detail of my having been out of the country half the time."
Penelope chose to ignore his sarcasm. "You're certainly a good enough writer to carry it off."
Colin had intended to say something droll and slightly gruff, dismissing her rather weak arguments, but the truth was he was so secretly delighted about her "good writer" compliment that all he could do was sit there with a loopy smile on his face.wAre you all right?" Penelope asked.wPerfectly fine," he replied, snapping to attention and trying to adopt a more sober mien. "Why would you ask?"wBecause you suddenly looked quite ill. Dizzy, actually."wI'm fine," he repeated, probably a little louder than was necessary. "I'm just thinking about the scandal."
She let out a beleaguered sigh, which irritated him, because he didn't see that she had any reason to feel so impatient with him. "What scandal?" she asked.wThe scandal that is going to erupt when she is discovered," he ground out.wShe's not Lady Whistledown!" she insisted.
Colin suddenly sat up straight, his eyes alight with a new idea. "Do you know," he said in a rather intense sort of voice, "but I don't think it matters if she is Lady Whistledown or not."
Penelope stared at him blankly for a full threeseconds before looking about the room, muttering, "Where's the food? I must be light-headed. Haven't you spent the last ten minutes positively going mad over the possibility that she is?"
As if on cue, Briarly entered the room with a heavily laden tray. Penelope and Colin watched in silence as the butler laid out the meal. "Would you like me to fix your plates?" he inquired.wNo, that's quite all right," Penelope said quickly. "We can manage forourselves."
Briarly nodded and, as soon as he'd laid the flatware and filled the two glasses with lemonade, left the room.wListen to me," Colin said, jumping to his feet and moving the door so that it almost rested against the doorframe (but remained technically open, should anyone quibble about proprieties).wDon't you want something to eat?" Penelope inquired, holding aloft a plate that she'd filled with various small snacks.
He snatched a piece of cheese, ate it in two rather indelicate bites, then continued, "Even if Eloise isn't Lady Whistledown—and mind you, I still think she is—it doesn't matter. Because if I suspect that she's Lady Whistledown, then surely someone else will as well."wYour point being?"
Colin realized that his arms were reaching forward, and he stopped himself before he reached out to shake her shoulders. "It doesn't matter! Don't you see? If someone points his finger at her, she'll be ruined."wBut not," Penelope said, appearing to require a great deal of effort to unclench her teeth, "if she's not Lady Whistledown!"wHow could she prove it?" Colin returned, jumping to his feet. "Once a rumor is started, the damage is done. It develops a life of its own."wColin, you ceased to make sense five minutes ago."wNo, hear me out." He whirled to face her, and he was seized by a feeling of such intensity that he couldn't have ripped his eyes from hers if the house were falling down around them. "Suppose I told everyone that I had seduced you."