Will you venture, said she, to accompany me to him?--Dare
you follow a lion in his retreats?--I'll attend your ladyship, said I,
wherever you command. Well, wench, said she; Pamela, I mean; thou art
very good in the main!--I should have loved thee as well as my mother
did--if--but 'tis all over now! Indeed you should not have married my
brother! But come, I must love him! Let's find him out! And yet will
he use me worse than a dog!--I should not, added she, have so much
exasperated him: for, whenever I have, I have always had the worst of
it. He knows I love him!
In this manner her ladyship talked to me, leaning on my arm, and walking
into the garden. I saw he was still in a tumult, as it were; and he
took another walk to avoid us. She called after him, and said, Brother,
brother, let me speak to you!--One word with you! And as we made haste
towards him, and came near to him; I desire, said he, that you'll not
oppress me more with your follies, and your violence. I have borne too
much with you, and I will vow for a twelvemonth, from this day--Hush,
said she, don't vow, I beg you for too well will you keep it, I know by
experience, if you do. You see, said she, I stoop to ask Pamela to be my
advocate.
Sure that will pacify you! Indeed, said he, I desire to see neither of you, on such an occasion;
and let me only be left to myself, for I will not be intruded upon thus;
and was going away.--But, said she, One word first, I desire.--If you'll
forgive me, I'll forgive you.--What, said the dear man, haughtily, will
you forgive me?--Why, said she, for she saw him too angry to mention his
marriage, as a subject that required her pardon--I will forgive you all
your bad usage of me this day.
I will be serious with you, sister, said he: I wish you most sincerely
well; but let us, from this time, study so much one another's quiet,
as never to come near one another more. Never? said she.--And can you
desire this? barbarous brother! can you?--I can, I do, said he; and I
have nothing to do, but to hide from you, not a brother, but a murderer,
and a profligate, unworthy of your relation; and let me be consigned
to penitence for my past evils: A penitence, however, that shall not be
broken in upon by so violent an accuser. Pamela, said he, and made me tremble, How dare you approach me, without
leave, when you see me thus disturbed?--Never, for the future, come near
me, when I am in these tumults, unless I send for you.