Archer’s eyes met mine from the other side of Daemon. It’s our only choice.
I know, I sent back.
Then you need to get him on board.
What the hell did Archer think I was doing? “Can you guys help me get him outside of this room?” Talking in here would just decline into him cussing out Lotho again.
Hunter nodded. “Come on, big boy. Let’s take a walk and let you cool down.”
It took a god-awful amount of time to get Daemon out into the tunnel leading into the main room. Both of the guys hesitated leaving him alone with me, as if they thought he’d bum-rush Lotho in the main room.
The way he was staring at the closed metal door, there was a good chance he might blast a hole right through it and go all Rambo on steroids on Lotho.
I watched him stand a few feet from me, his chest rising and falling deeply. The edges of his body were still blurred, and I could practically feel the bitter metallic taste of his anger.
“I can’t believe he’d even suggest that,” he said, his voice as razor sharp as broken glass.
“I can’t either, but . . .” I took a deep breath when his luminous gaze found mine. “But that’s his condition.”
Daemon opened his mouth, closed it, and then opened it again. “I don’t care if he could twitch his f**king nose and make the Luxen disappear; he’s not going to feed off you.”
“If he doesn’t, then he’s not going to help us,” I reasoned carefully. “None of the Arum are going to help us.”
“I. Don’t. Care.”
“Yes, you do. I know you care. There’s too much at stake for you to not care.”
He laughed harshly as he faced me. “You know me better than that.”
“Exactly! I know you, and I know you’re angry right now—”
“‘Angry’ isn’t a strong enough word for what I’m feeling right now,” he shot back.
“Okay.” I raised my hands. “But we have to get him to help us.”
“Not if it means you have to go through with that.” He started to pace. “I can’t allow it. There’s no way I can let you go through being fed on. Nothing in this world is worth that. You have no idea—”
“I know what it’s like to be fed on,” I reminded him, and he flinched. I swore it was the first time I’d ever seen him do that. “When I got caught in Mount Weather, I was fed on. I know it’s not fun and it won’t be pretty and it’s going to hurt, but—”
“No!” he shouted, hands curling into fists. He cursed again, thrusting his fingers through his hair as he twisted his upper body toward me. “It kills me that you even know what it feels like, that you had to experience it and I couldn’t protect you.”
“Daemon—”
“I’m not going to allow that to happen to you again. No way, so don’t even think you can convince me.”
“Then what do we do? Just say screw it?”
“Sounds like a plan to me.”
I stared at him.
“What? We can go live in a damn cave,” he said, pacing once more. “Look, I’m a selfish person. You know that. And I don’t want you to go through that, so I’m willing to say screw it and we cut our losses.”
“Really? What kind of life would that give us?”
“Don’t bring logic into this conversation.”
Frustration whirled inside me as I stepped in front of him, clasping his cheeks. The stubble grazed my palms. “Daemon, there is no life for any of us if we don’t get them to help us.”
“We can make it work. I know we can.”
“Daemon . . .”
He broke away. “I can’t even believe we’re having this conversation.”
“I know the idea is upsetting.”
“Do you? Sounds like you don’t.”
My eyes narrowed and I planted my hands on my hips. “Come on, you know I don’t want to do this. The very idea of—of feeling something like that again terrifies me and makes me sick, but if that’s what it takes to get them to help us, then that’s what I need to do. That’s what we need to do.”
“You do not need to,” he snapped.
I dragged in several deep breaths. “We need to. For your sister.”
“You’re going to make me choose between you and her?” he shouted, eyes a vehement white.
“I’m not making you choose.” I followed him around the tight circle he paced. “You are making that choice. By trying to protect me, you’re letting her go.”
He stopped and stared at me. I thought he’d lash out again, but he closed his eyes, his striking face taut and his body rigid.
I knew in that moment I had him thinking instead of feeling. I latched onto it. “Are you ready to do that? Because she’ll probably die. I hate saying so, even thinking about it, but it’s the truth.”
Mashing his lips together, he turned away from me, his head bowed. Several moments passed. “He’ll be touching you. He’ll be—”
“It’s not like Lotho wants to have sex with me.”
He faced me, nostrils flared. “God, I’m going to kill him. Just even hearing his name and the word ‘sex’ in the same sentence—”
“Daemon.”
“What?” He turned, thrusting both of his hands through his hair. “How can you ask me to be okay with this?”