To her surprise, her father began to walk about again before he

answered. At length he stopped and replied: 'Margaret, I am a poor coward after all. I cannot bear to give

pain. I know so well your mother's married life has not been all

she hoped--all she had a right to expect--and this will be such a

blow to her, that I have never had the heart, the power to tell

her. She must be told though, now,' said he, looking wistfully at

his daughter. Margaret was almost overpowered with the idea that

her mother knew nothing of it all, and yet the affair was so far

advanced!

'Yes, indeed she must,' said Margaret. 'Perhaps, after all, she

may not--Oh yes! she will, she must be shocked'--as the force of

the blow returned upon herself in trying to realise how another

would take it. 'Where are we to go to?' said she at last, struck

with a fresh wonder as to their future plans, if plans indeed her

father had.

'To Milton-Northern,' he answered, with a dull indifference, for

he had perceived that, although his daughter's love had made her

cling to him, and for a moment strive to soothe him with her

love, yet the keenness of the pain was as fresh as ever in her

mind.

'Milton-Northern! The manufacturing town in Darkshire?' 'Yes,' said he, in the same despondent, indifferent way.

'Why there, papa?' asked she.

'Because there I can earn bread for my family. Because I know no

one there, and no one knows Helstone, or can ever talk to me

about it.' 'Bread for your family! I thought you and mamma had'--and then

she stopped, checking her natural interest regarding their future

life, as she saw the gathering gloom on her father's brow. But

he, with his quick intuitive sympathy, read in her face, as in a

mirror, the reflections of his own moody depression, and turned

it off with an effort.

'You shall be told all, Margaret. Only help me to tell your

mother. I think I could do anything but that: the idea of her

distress turns me sick with dread. If I tell you all, perhaps you

could break it to her to-morrow. I am going out for the day, to

bid Farmer Dobson and the poor people on Bracy Common good-bye.

Would you dislike breaking it to her very much, Margaret?' Margaret did dislike it, did shrink from it more than from

anything she had ever had to do in her life before. She could not

speak, all at once. Her father said, 'You dislike it very much,

don't you, Margaret?' Then she conquered herself, and said, with

a bright strong look on her face: 'It is a painful thing, but it must be done, and I will do it as

well as ever I can. You must have many painful things to do.' Mr. Hale shook his head despondingly: he pressed her hand in

token of gratitude. Margaret was nearly upset again into a burst

of crying. To turn her thoughts, she said: 'Now tell me, papa,

what our plans are. You and mamma have some money, independent of

the income from the living, have not you? Aunt Shaw has, I know.' 'Yes. I suppose we have about a hundred and seventy pounds a year

of our own. Seventy of that has always gone to Frederick, since

he has been abroad. I don't know if he wants it all,' he

continued in a hesitating manner. 'He must have some pay for

serving with the Spanish army.' 'Frederick must not suffer,' said Margaret, decidedly; 'in a

foreign country; so unjustly treated by his own. A hundred is

left Could not you, and I, and mamma live on a hundred a year in

some very cheap--very quiet part of England? Oh! I think we

could.' 'No!' said Mr. Hale. 'That would not answer. I must do something.

I must make myself busy, to keep off morbid thoughts. Besides, in

a country parish I should be so painfully reminded of Helstone,

and my duties here. I could not bear it, Margaret. And a hundred

a year would go a very little way, after the necessary wants of

housekeeping are met, towards providing your mother with all the

comforts she has been accustomed to, and ought to have. No: we

must go to Milton. That is settled. I can always decide better by

myself, and not influenced by those whom I love,' said he, as a

half apology for having arranged so much before he had told any

one of his family of his intentions. 'I cannot stand objections.

They make me so undecided.' Margaret resolved to keep silence. After all, what did it signify

where they went, compared to the one terrible change?




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