'Margaret!' said Mr. Hale, at last, in a sort of sudden desperate

way, that made her start. 'Is that tapestry thing of immediate

consequence? I mean, can you leave it and come into my study? I

want to speak to you about something very serious to us all.' 'Very serious to us all.' Mr. Lennox had never had the

opportunity of having any private conversation with her father

after her refusal, or else that would indeed be a very serious

affair. In the first place, Margaret felt guilty and ashamed of

having grown so much into a woman as to be thought of in

marriage; and secondly, she did not know if her father might not

be displeased that she had taken upon herself to decline Mr.

Lennox's proposal. But she soon felt it was not about anything,

which having only lately and suddenly occurred, could have given

rise to any complicated thoughts, that her father wished to speak

to her. He made her take a chair by him; he stirred the fire,

snuffed the candles, and sighed once or twice before he could

make up his mind to say--and it came out with a jerk after

all--'Margaret! I am going to leave Helstone.' 'Leave Helstone, papa! But why?' Mr. Hale did not answer for a minute or two. He played with some

papers on the table in a nervous and confused manner, opening his

lips to speak several times, but closing them again without

having the courage to utter a word. Margaret could not bear the

sight of the suspense, which was even more distressing to her

father than to herself.

'But why, dear papa? Do tell me!' He looked up at her suddenly, and then said with a slow and

enforced calmness: 'Because I must no longer be a minister in the Church of

England.' Margaret had imagined nothing less than that some of the

preferments which her mother so much desired had befallen her

father at last--something that would force him to leave

beautiful, beloved Helstone, and perhaps compel him to go and

live in some of the stately and silent Closes which Margaret had

seen from time to time in cathedral towns. They were grand and

imposing places, but if, to go there, it was necessary to leave

Helstone as a home for ever, that would have been a sad, long,

lingering pain. But nothing to the shock she received from Mr.

Hale's last speech. What could he mean? It was all the worse for

being so mysterious. The aspect of piteous distress on his face,

almost as imploring a merciful and kind judgment from his child,

gave her a sudden sickening. Could he have become implicated in

anything Frederick had done? Frederick was an outlaw. Had her

father, out of a natural love for his son, connived at any-'Oh! what is it? do speak, papa! tell me all! Why can you no

longer be a clergyman? Surely, if the bishop were told all we

know about Frederick, and the hard, unjust--' 'It is nothing about Frederick; the bishop would have nothing to

do with that. It is all myself. Margaret, I will tell you about

it. I will answer any questions this once, but after to-night let

us never speak of it again. I can meet the consequences of my

painful, miserable doubts; but it is an effort beyond me to speak

of what has caused me so much suffering.' 'Doubts, papa! Doubts as to religion?' asked Margaret, more

shocked than ever.




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