Not laughing anymore, are you, Father?

I smirk and lick my lips, savouring the metallic taste of small victories.

Considering Father Robert is close to 6’3, and is approximately two-hundred-and-thirty pounds of muscle, and I am only 5’6 and weigh one-hundred-and-forty pounds, perhaps this victory isn’t so small.

My adrenaline begins to fade, and with it, my anger. My body becomes weak and slumps. Father Robert feels this. I am of no use to him now. He releases me, puts a hand to my head and pushes me away playfully.

I fall onto the padded mat, huffing and puffing. Sweat drips onto the floor beneath me. Squinting, I look up at his stern face.

His once-black hair now salt-and-pepper is neatly cut. His broad chest and shoulders are heaving with every breath. Black sweat pants cover his long, thick legs, and he is barefooted. His dark brown eyes bore into mine. If he wasn’t a priest, Father Robert would be considered rather dashing.

Not that he isn’t. I’ve seen the way women look at him. Of course, I don’t see him this way. The man is the closest thing I have to an actual father.

He crosses his arms over his chest and scolds, “Catarina, what the heck was that?”

A pang of sadness pierces my chest and I lower my head.

He sighs. “You need to do better. Today’s session was atrocious. Disgusting.”

My breathing still heavy, I stand on weak legs and move to stand in front of him. “I’m sorry, Bob. I had an off-morning.”

Large hands fall on my shoulders. He bends at the waist to look me in the eye. “Get your head in the game, Fury.”

I nod.

“You’re going to get yourself killed.”

I nod once more. He’s right, after all.

His voice turns harsh as he says, “If you get yourself killed, I’ll find a way to resurrect you just so I can kill you myself.”

I can’t hold back my grin no matter how hard I try. “We don’t believe in resurrection, Father Robert.”

He rolls his eyes and says, “Har-di-har-har.”

He wraps an arm around my shoulders and walks me back to my quarters. “No session tonight; your mind is preoccupied. Sleep it off and we’ll start fresh tomorrow.” Disappointment laces his voice, and I can’t help the feeling of frustration settling over me.

Sort your shit out, girl.

I whisper, “I’m sorry. I’ll do better.”

When we reach the door to my room, he faces me, leans down and kisses my forehead. “I know you will.” His fatherly smile warms me. I smile back, albeit weakly. “May the lord be with you, Catarina.”

“And also with you, Father.”

He hesitates a moment, indecision crossing his features. Finally, he takes my hand in his and says a hushed, “I let you go unprepared last time. We all nearly paid for your...I mean my mistake. It won’t happen again, child. I promise.”

My cheeks flush. The heat radiates off me in dull waves.

He had to bring it up, didn’t he?

It’s not like I don’t think about that night every single day. It’s not like I haven’t lost sleep over it every night since.

He smiles apologetically, and then leaves me to reflect.

And reflect I do.

Chapter Two

Memories of that night haunt me.

Father Robert always takes the blame, but the truth is—it was my fault.

I know it.

Everyone knows it.

It will forever be a thorn in my side. There is nothing I can do about that though, only live in the now.

I dress myself in a plain white, long-sleeved shirt buttoned completely, a navy plaid skirt that comes well below my knees, navy tights and black ballet flats. I attach my short navy-coloured veil to my head with hairpins, close my eyes, say a small prayer and then exit my room.

Most often, a postulant will not wear a veil, as it isn’t required, but if they choose to—as I have—the veil will be shorter than a nun’s and darker in colour.

Holding my hands together in front of me, I walk silently towards the kitchen, where I can already hear the sweet laughter of Sister Francis. I smile and enter. Sister Francis, elbow-deep in bread dough, lifts her head and beams at me. “Well, if it isn’t my little kitty Cat.” She winks and I resist the urge to roll my eyes.

Sister Francis—affectionately known to me as Frankie—is like a sister to me. She is sweet, kind and funny—everything I could ever want in a sister had I been able to choose for myself. She is ten years my senior and beautiful, with a natural kind of beauty. Her copper-coloured hair is long and wavy, her eyes are the bluest of blues and her skin is pale alabaster. The thing that makes her the prettiest though is her smile.

When Frankie smiles, everyone smiles. Her smile is a celebration that calls other smiles to it.

“Good morning, Frankie.”

I ignore the huff that comes out of Sister Arianne and quickly greet her too. “Good morning, Sister.”

A few years older than Frankie, Sister Arianne is rake-thin, blonde and green-eyed; she is also very proper, well mannered and mildly stern. Her French accent is awesome. She can turn any insult into something suave and chic. “Good morning, petit amie. I will ask you save such familiarity ‘til after church hours, no?” Her glare cuts through me like a hot knife through butter.

Feeling chastised, I respond quietly, “Of course, Sister.” Turning to Frankie, I mutter, “Sorry, Sister Francis.” I turn back to Sister Arianne. “It won’t happen again.”

Frankie’s having none of it. “Oh, for heaven’s sake, Ari, no one’s around! We know the drill, all right?”

Sister Arianne smiles at me. “I know, but Cat is a good girl.” She turns to glare at Frankie. “She listens to me, unlike some. Besides, any bad behaviour reflects badly on Father Robert. Understand?”

Frankie rolls her eyes at Ari, and then turns to me. “Listen, kid, I have you down for kitchen duty this morning, but I’ve done most of it anyways. Could you take garden duty?”

I hide my smile.

Garden duty.

My favourite.

“Yes, Sister Francis.” Before she can change her mind, I’m out the backdoor.

As soon as I’m through it, I hear her call, “And for the love of God, call me Frankie!”

***

I love garden duty.

Something about picking fresh produce in the crisp morning air calms me.

I take my time choosing the ripest tomatoes, greenest cucumbers and most vibrant peppers for tonight’s dinner. I bring each vegetable to my nose and breathe in the earthy sweetness before placing it with the others in my basket.




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