More and more I was coming to realize that I wanted to stay here and continue to explore this new inner world. Here I had a purpose even a destiny perhaps whereas on the world above I was just a washed up has been, who was now deeply in debt, without a boat to show for it.
I glanced at Keturah and self-acknowledged that I even had a beautiful mate if I wanted her, by which to complement my new standing in this inner world. I did want her, but I warred within myself against the forbidden desires that attacked my remembrance of the past and threatened to overwhelm them with something new.