Again, as he kissed me, painful thoughts darkened his aspect. "My

scared vision! My crippled strength!" he murmured regretfully.

I caressed, in order to soothe him. I knew of what he was thinking,

and wanted to speak for him, but dared not. As he turned aside his

face a minute, I saw a tear slide from under the sealed eyelid, and

trickle down the manly cheek. My heart swelled.

"I am no better than the old lightning-struck chestnut-tree in

Thornfield orchard," he remarked ere long. "And what right would

that ruin have to bid a budding woodbine cover its decay with

freshness?"

"You are no ruin, sir--no lightning-struck tree: you are green and

vigorous. Plants will grow about your roots, whether you ask them

or not, because they take delight in your bountiful shadow; and as

they grow they will lean towards you, and wind round you, because

your strength offers them so safe a prop."

Again he smiled: I gave him comfort.

"You speak of friends, Jane?" he asked.

"Yes, of friends," I answered rather hesitatingly: for I knew I

meant more than friends, but could not tell what other word to

employ. He helped me.

"Ah! Jane. But I want a wife."

"Do you, sir?"

"Yes: is it news to you?"

"Of course: you said nothing about it before."

"Is it unwelcome news?"

"That depends on circumstances, sir--on your choice."

"Which you shall make for me, Jane. I will abide by your decision."

"Choose then, sir--HER WHO LOVES YOU BEST."

"I will at least choose--HER I LOVE BEST. Jane, will you marry me?"

"Yes, sir."

"A poor blind man, whom you will have to lead about by the hand?"

"Yes, sir."

"A crippled man, twenty years older than you, whom you will have to

wait on?"

"Yes, sir."

"Truly, Jane?"

"Most truly, sir."

"Oh! my darling! God bless you and reward you!"

"Mr. Rochester, if ever I did a good deed in my life--if ever I

thought a good thought--if ever I prayed a sincere and blameless

prayer--if ever I wished a righteous wish,--I am rewarded now. To

be your wife is, for me, to be as happy as I can be on earth."

"Because you delight in sacrifice."

"Sacrifice! What do I sacrifice? Famine for food, expectation for

content. To be privileged to put my arms round what I value--to

press my lips to what I love--to repose on what I trust: is that to

make a sacrifice? If so, then certainly I delight in sacrifice."




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