I neither expressed surprise at this resolution nor attempted to

dissuade her from it. "The vocation will fit you to a hair," I

thought: "much good may it do you!"

When we parted, she said: "Good-bye, cousin Jane Eyre; I wish you

well: you have some sense."

I then returned: "You are not without sense, cousin Eliza; but what

you have, I suppose, in another year will be walled up alive in a

French convent. However, it is not my business, and so it suits

you, I don't much care."

"You are in the right," said she; and with these words we each went

our separate way. As I shall not have occasion to refer either to

her or her sister again, I may as well mention here, that Georgiana

made an advantageous match with a wealthy worn-out man of fashion,

and that Eliza actually took the veil, and is at this day superior

of the convent where she passed the period of her novitiate, and

which she endowed with her fortune.

How people feel when they are returning home from an absence, long

or short, I did not know: I had never experienced the sensation. I

had known what it was to come back to Gateshead when a child after a

long walk, to be scolded for looking cold or gloomy; and later, what

it was to come back from church to Lowood, to long for a plenteous

meal and a good fire, and to be unable to get either. Neither of

these returnings was very pleasant or desirable: no magnet drew me

to a given point, increasing in its strength of attraction the

nearer I came. The return to Thornfield was yet to be tried.

My journey seemed tedious--very tedious: fifty miles one day, a

night spent at an inn; fifty miles the next day. During the first

twelve hours I thought of Mrs. Reed in her last moments; I saw her

disfigured and discoloured face, and heard her strangely altered

voice. I mused on the funeral day, the coffin, the hearse, the

black train of tenants and servants--few was the number of

relatives--the gaping vault, the silent church, the solemn service.

Then I thought of Eliza and Georgiana; I beheld one the cynosure of

a ball-room, the other the inmate of a convent cell; and I dwelt on

and analysed their separate peculiarities of person and character.

The evening arrival at the great town of--scattered these thoughts;

night gave them quite another turn: laid down on my traveller's

bed, I left reminiscence for anticipation.

I was going back to Thornfield: but how long was I to stay there?

Not long; of that I was sure. I had heard from Mrs. Fairfax in the

interim of my absence: the party at the hall was dispersed; Mr.

Rochester had left for London three weeks ago, but he was then

expected to return in a fortnight. Mrs. Fairfax surmised that he

was gone to make arrangements for his wedding, as he had talked of

purchasing a new carriage: she said the idea of his marrying Miss

Ingram still seemed strange to her; but from what everybody said,

and from what she had herself seen, she could no longer doubt that

the event would shortly take place. "You would be strangely

incredulous if you did doubt it," was my mental comment. "I don't

doubt it."




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