"He calls the knaves Jacks, this boy!" said Estella with disdain, before

our first game was out. "And what coarse hands he has! And what thick

boots!"

I had never thought of being ashamed of my hands before; but I began

to consider them a very indifferent pair. Her contempt for me was so

strong, that it became infectious, and I caught it.

She won the game, and I dealt. I misdealt, as was only natural, when I

knew she was lying in wait for me to do wrong; and she denounced me for

a stupid, clumsy laboring-boy.

"You say nothing of her," remarked Miss Havisham to me, as she looked

on. "She says many hard things of you, but you say nothing of her. What

do you think of her?"

"I don't like to say," I stammered.

"Tell me in my ear," said Miss Havisham, bending down.

"I think she is very proud," I replied, in a whisper.

"Anything else?"

"I think she is very pretty."

"Anything else?"

"I think she is very insulting." (She was looking at me then with a look

of supreme aversion.) "Anything else?"

"I think I should like to go home."

"And never see her again, though she is so pretty?"

"I am not sure that I shouldn't like to see her again, but I should like

to go home now."

"You shall go soon," said Miss Havisham, aloud. "Play the game out."

Saving for the one weird smile at first, I should have felt almost

sure that Miss Havisham's face could not smile. It had dropped into a

watchful and brooding expression,--most likely when all the things about

her had become transfixed,--and it looked as if nothing could ever lift

it up again. Her chest had dropped, so that she stooped; and her voice

had dropped, so that she spoke low, and with a dead lull upon her;

altogether, she had the appearance of having dropped body and soul,

within and without, under the weight of a crushing blow.

I played the game to an end with Estella, and she beggared me. She

threw the cards down on the table when she had won them all, as if she

despised them for having been won of me.

"When shall I have you here again?" said Miss Havisham. "Let me think."

I was beginning to remind her that to-day was Wednesday, when she

checked me with her former impatient movement of the fingers of her

right hand.




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