We played until nine o'clock, and then it was arranged that when Estella

came to London I should be forewarned of her coming and should meet her

at the coach; and then I took leave of her, and touched her and left

her.

My guardian lay at the Boar in the next room to mine. Far into the

night, Miss Havisham's words, "Love her, love her, love her!" sounded in

my ears. I adapted them for my own repetition, and said to my pillow, "I

love her, I love her, I love her!" hundreds of times. Then, a burst of

gratitude came upon me, that she should be destined for me, once the

blacksmith's boy. Then I thought if she were, as I feared, by no means

rapturously grateful for that destiny yet, when would she begin to be

interested in me? When should I awaken the heart within her that was

mute and sleeping now?

Ah me! I thought those were high and great emotions. But I never thought

there was anything low and small in my keeping away from Joe, because

I knew she would be contemptuous of him. It was but a day gone, and Joe

had brought the tears into my eyes; they had soon dried, God forgive me!

soon dried.




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