She smiled that beautiful smile and nodded.
The moment we walked in, I noticed the cabinets. I closed my eyes as I pictured taking a blindfold off of Heather.
“Did I make these cabinets?” I asked.
She spun around and looked at me. “Yes! Oh my god! Do you remember making them, Josh?”
I had to laugh at how excited she got every time I seemed to remember something. “I remember taking a blindfold off of you…and we were standing in this bathroom.” I looked around. Fuck, I do good work!
She put her hands on my chest and started pushing me out the door. “I have to go pee,” she said with a wink.
“Again? My god, girl. It’s all that water you were drinking tonight!” I pulled her to me and kissed her before she closed the door.
I headed toward the bed and took a good look around. She had her iPod sitting on her iHome, so I reached down and hit play. Tim McGraw’s “One of Those Nights” started playing. I’d heard this song this morning, and it had made me think of Heather. I smiled to myself, thinking how perfect this song was.
I walked over to the dresser and saw a picture of us fishing somewhere. Heather was holding a giant-ass bass, and she had the biggest smile on her face. I took off my boots and then pulled my T-shirt out of my pants. I opened a drawer, and it was filled with my clothes. I smiled as I took out my favorite T-shirt from high school.
Why can’t I remember? I just want to remember what it was like to be with her.
“I love that T-shirt,” Heather said from behind me.
I turned around and sucked in a breath of air. My eyes traveled up and down her body. With a wicked smile on her face, she was leaning up against the doorjamb, wearing only a pink lace bra and matching panties.
Holy shit…I can’t even think straight. “Heather…I, um…I can’t even fucking think straight while looking at you in just your, um…your…um…” I just kept staring at her. She’s perfect. There isn’t a single thing I would change about her.
She let out a laugh as she started to walk toward me. By the time she reached me, George Strait’s “Give It All We Got Tonight” started playing. She placed her hands on my chest and looked up at me. She slowly moved her hand down. She took the T-shirt I was holding out of my hand, and she tossed it to the floor.
“I, um…that was my favorite shirt in high school,” I whispered as I placed my hands on her hips. Oh god…her skin is so soft. I’m not gonna last five minutes.
She licked her lips. “I know.” She slowly started to lift my T-shirt up.
I reached down and helped her get it off. The way she was looking at my body was like she’d never seen it before. I couldn’t be any more turned-on if I wanted to be.
“Dance with me?” she asked.
I pulled her closer to me as she placed her head against my chest. She fits so perfectly in my arms.
“I’m so scared, Josh,” she whispered.
What? Why in the world is she scared?
She pulled away and looked into my eyes. The tears rolling down her face about gutted me.
“Oh, baby…please don’t be scared. I promise…it’s going to be perfect.”
I wiped away her tears as she gave me a weak smile. For a brief moment, it almost seemed like she wasn’t scared of making love with me. She seemed to be scared of something else, something she was holding back from me.
I walked her toward the bed as she started to unbutton my jeans. I leaned down and took her lips with mine. The sweet, soft moan she let out rolled through my body with such a warm feeling. I reached behind her and used my hand to unclasp her bra. I slowly slipped it off her, and then I just stared at her beautiful skin.
So fucking beautiful. I love this girl. I feel it one hundred percent in my heart. I love her more than anything.
I looked into her beautiful blue eyes and smiled as she smiled back at me. I kissed her so softly. When I pulled away, I noticed her biting her lower lip. I reached up with my thumb and pulled it out of her teeth as I shook my head.
“I want to do that.” I noticed her whole body tremble. “Lie down, princess,” I whispered against her lips.
Chapter Twenty-Four
The moment he told me to lie down, my heart dropped into my stomach. Oh god…I want him so badly. How is he making me feel like this is our first time all over again? I started to move back onto the bed as I watched him take off his pants. My heart was slamming in my chest. I was lying down just as “Storm” by Lifehouse started to play. I closed my eyes and fought back the tears. Breathe…oh god. Breathe.
I opened my eyes and saw Josh standing there, looking at me. Oh. My. God. He has tears in his eyes.
“I want to lose myself in you…and I pray to God I also find myself in you, princess.”
He slowly moved onto the bed and over me. He captured my mouth with his and kissed me like I’d never been kissed before. I wasn’t even aware that he was taking off my panties until I felt his hands lift me up. My body shivered under his touch.
“I love you, Josh. I love you so much. Please…please,” was all I could manage to get out.
Josh leaned his forehead on mine. He took in a deep breath and then slowly let it out. “I’ll love you until the day I take my last breath.” He took his hand and placed it on the side of my face before moving it down my neck, to my chest, and then lower to my stomach. He stopped right on my stomach and smiled.
I sucked in a breath of air. Does he know? Impossible…he couldn’t know.
“Maybe someday, we can fill this whole house with kids,” he said with a smile.
I felt a tear rolling down my face. He moved his hand lower, and the moment I felt him touch my clit, I bucked up my hips. Then, I felt his fingers inside me, and I almost came. God, I need him in me so bad.
“Heather…fuck, you’re so wet, princess.” He started to move his hand in a way that drove me to the edge in no time.
“Yes,” was all I could get off my lips.
“Tell me what you want, Heather.”
Oh. My. God. I can’t stop it. “Oh god, Josh. I want you…I need you so badly. I need you.”
“I love you, baby.” He took my nipple into his mouth.
It hit me so hard and fast that I couldn’t help but yell out in pleasure. “Oh, Josh! Oh…oh god…please don’t stop.”
Before I even had a chance to come down from the incredible orgasm I’d just had, I felt him slowly entering my body.
Oh my…he feels so good.
“Good god…Heather, you feel like heaven.” Josh started to move so slowly. “You feel so damn good.”
I pushed my hips toward him. I need him to go faster, harder. “Josh…go faster! Please move.”
He let out a laugh as he pulled back and looked at me. “Okay, princess, but this is, like, my first time with you. I just want to savor every second.”
I pulled his face to mine and kissed him like I’d never kissed him. He smiled against my lips.
“I love you,” he said.
I smiled. “I love you more.”
“I love you more times infinity,” he said with a wink.
He made such sweet, slow love to me that I almost wanted to cry. I pushed my hips up and grabbed him by the ass. I need more. I forced him over and got on top. The moment I sank all the way down onto him, I threw my head back and moaned. Holy hell, this feels so damn good. I’ve missed him so much. I started to give him a taste of his own medicine as I slowly, oh-so slowly moved up and down and then around.
When Josh let out a moan, I smiled, knowing I was making him feel so good.
He grabbed on to my hips and tried to get me to move faster, but I stopped moving altogether. His eyes flew open, and he smiled that damn smile of his. The dimple on the side of his cheek melted my heart in an instant.
“Baby, I really need you to move.”
I moved slightly and smiled.
“I’m gonna flip your ass over and take you from behind unless you move,” he said with a smile.
I raised my eyebrows. From just him mentioning it, I almost felt like I could come again.
He sat up and took me in his arms as I started to move.
Oh. My. God. This feels so good. “Oh god, I’m going to come again, Josh.”
I threw my head back as we both cried out in pleasure.
The next thing I knew, I was lying across his chest, listening to him trying to catch his breath. I smiled to myself as I thought about how wonderful it was to be with him again.
He’s mine again. He will always be mine.
When I rolled off of him, he took me in his arms, and I felt myself going to sleep, falling into a dream.
On my way to the bonfire, Ari reached out and grabbed my arm.
“Maybe you and I should take a walk, Heather.”
“Why? It’s getting cold, and I just want to sit by the fire.”
Ari looked back over at the fire. When I followed her eyes, I saw Josh and Victoria hugging. My stomach turned, and I wanted to throw up.
Then, it happened. He dropped to one knee and held out a ring box. Victoria’s hand flew up to her mouth as she let out a small scream.
My eyes moved from her to Josh. When he glanced over at me, I wanted to scream, No!
But I couldn’t move.
“Heather? Heather! Baby, please wake up!”
“No! No, you can’t marry her! You love me! No!” I sat up with sweat pouring off of me. Oh my god! I had the dream again. It was the same stupid dream I’d been having for the last few weeks. Shit! I placed my hand on my chest. I can’t breathe.
“Baby, take a deep breath.” Josh wrapped his arms around me.
Oh, thank you, God. He’s with me.
“Jesus, Heather, you scared the shit out of me. What in the hell were you dreaming about?” Josh asked as he ran his hand through my hair.
I shook my head. “Nothing. Just a nightmare that I’m hoping I never have again.” I looked up and smiled at him.
“Shit, I hope not.”
I felt his hand move up and down my side. I started to get that familiar ache between my legs. I would have to ask Ari if this was just a part of being pregnant or if it was just because I’d missed Josh so much. Either way, I wanted him again. I glanced up at the clock and saw it was six in the morning. When I looked back at him, he smiled and tapped my nose with his finger.
“Want to go take a shower?” I asked, scrunching up my nose.
He laughed. “Again?”
I nodded and smiled. “It’s such a big shower, and I don’t want to be in there all alone.”
“Shit, Heather. I never knew my equipment could perform so much. I’m really happy about it and all, but baby, this’ll be the fourth time. I don’t want you to be sore.”
I pushed him onto his back and crawled on top of him. I rubbed against him until I felt him growing hard. I bent over and kissed one nipple and then the other before I jumped off of him.
“Okay. Well, you know where I’ll be if you change your mind,” I said over my shoulder as I winked at him and made my way into the shower.
After we made love in the shower, we got dressed, and then I finally gave Josh a tour of the house. I made us breakfast, and we ate it on the back deck. We talked about Josh wanting a dog, and I answered a million questions he had about us.