'Yes,' she said. 'I think I see.' 'He loves you,' said Madame Bonanni, still looking at her. 'I have

guessed it. It is very hard for me to get him to like me a little, and

he would not forgive me if the really good critics said I was a better

artist than you. That would be one thing more against me, my dear, and

he has so many things against me already! So I have given it up. Why

should I go on singing, now? He does not care any more. When he has

once heard you he will never want to come again and sit in the middle

of the theatre all alone in the audience just to hear me, as he often

did. Then I sang my best. I never sang as I have sung for him, when I

have caught sight of his face in the audience. No, not for kings. I

used to go and look through the curtain before it went up, if I thought

he was there. And it was just to hear me that he came, just for the

artistic pleasure! He never came to my dressing-room, for that

destroyed the illusion. But now he will go and hear you, and it would

make him very bitter against me if any one said I sang better. Do you

understand?' 'Yes. I understand.' Margaret bent her head a little and looked down, wondering and puzzled,

yet believing.

'At least I can do that for him.' Madame Bonanni sighed, looking into

the glass again. 'I cannot undo my life, but I need not seem to him to

be a hindrance in yours.' It was impossible to receive such a confidence without being deeply

touched, and Margaret's own voice shook a little as she answered.

'There have not been many mothers like you since the world began,' she

said.

'I will tell you!' The singer turned half round in her chair with one

of her sudden movements. 'If I had known that I was going to be so fond

of him--and oh, my dear, if I could have guessed that he would care so

much!--I would have led a different life! I would have left the stage

if I could not. Oh, don't think it is so easy to be good! But it's

possible! One can--one could, if one only knew--for the sake of some

one whom one loves very dearly!' 'Of course it is!' answered Margaret, with all the heavenly

self-confidence of untried virtue.

Madame Bonanni looked at her with a peculiar expression. There was a

little pity in the look, and great doubt, a shade of amusement,

perhaps, and a great longing envy through it all.




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