J.

I have not had to alter any thought ever formed about you, Beloved; I have

only had to deepen it--that is all. You grow, but you remain. I have heard

people talk about you, generally kindly; but what they think of you is

often wrong. I do not say anything, but I am glad, and so sure that I know

you better. If my mind is so clear about you, it shows that you are good

for me. Now for nearly three months I may not see you again; but all that

time you will be growing in my heart; and at the end without another word

from you I shall find that I know you better than before. Is that strange?

It is because I love you: love is knowledge--blind knowledge, not wanting

eyes. I only hope that I shall keep in your memory the kind place you have

given me. You are almost my friend now, and I know it. You do not know

that I love you.

K.

Beloved: You love me! I know it now, and bless the sun and the moon and

the stars for the dear certainty of it. And I ask you now, O heart that

has opened to me, have I once been unhappy or impatient while this good

thing has been withheld from me? Indeed my love for you has occupied me

too completely: I have been so glad to find how much there is to learn in

a good heart deeply unconscious of its own goodness. You have employed me

as I wish I may be employed all the days of my life: and now my beloved

employer has given me the wages I did not ask.

You love me! Is it a question of little or much? Is it not rather an

entire new thought of me that has entered your life, as the thought of you

entered mine months that seem years ago? It was the seed then, and seemed

small; but the whole life was there; and it has grown and grown till now

it is I who have become small, and have hardly room in me for the roots:

and it seems to have gone so far up over my head that I wonder if the

stars know of my happiness.

They must know of yours too, then, my Beloved: they are no company for me

without you. Oh, to-day, to-day of all days! how in my heart I shall go on

kissing it till I die! You love me: that is wonderful! You love me: and

already it is not wonderful in the least! but belongs to Noah and the ark

and all the animals saved up for an earth washed clean and dried, and the

new beginnings of time which have ever since been twisting and turning

with us in safe keeping through all the history of the world.




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