Dearest, Dearest: How long has this happened? You don't tell me the day or

the hour. Is it ever since you last wrote? Then you have been in pain and

grief for four days: and I not knowing anything about it! And you have no

hand in the house kind enough to let you dictate by it one small word to

poor me? What heartless merrymakings may I not have sent you to worry you,

when soothing was the one thing wanted? Well, I will not worry now, then;

neither at not being told, nor at not being allowed to come: but I will

come thus and thus, O my dear heart, and take you in my arms. And you will

be comforted, will you not be? when I tell you that even if you had no

legs at all, I would love you just the same. Indeed, dearest, so much of

you is a superfluity: just your heart against mine, and the sound of your

voice, would carry me up to more heavens than I could otherwise have

dreamed of. I may say now, now that I know it was not your choice, what a

void these last few days the lack of letters has been to me. I wondered,

truly, if you had found it well to put off such visible signs for a while

in order to appease one who, in other things more essential, sees you

rebellious. But the wonder is over now; and I don't want you to write--not

till a consultation of doctors orders it for the good of your health. I

will be so happy talking to you: also I am sending you books:--those I

wish you to read; and which now you must, since you have the leisure!

And I for my part will make time and read yours. Whose do you most want me

to read, that my education in your likings may become complete? What I

send you will not deprive me of anything: for I have the beautiful

complete set--your gift--and shall read side by side with you to realize

in imagination what the happiness of reading them for the first time ought

to be.

Yesterday, by a most unsympathetic instinct, I went out for a long tramp

on my two feet; and no ache in them came and told me of you! Over

Sillingford I sat on a bank and looked downhill where went a carter. And

I looked uphill where lay something which might be nothing--or not his.

Now, shall I make a fool of myself by pursuing to tell him he may have

dropped something, or shall I go on and see? So I went on and saw a coat

with a fat pocket: and by then he was out of sight, and perhaps it

wasn't his; and it was very hot and the hill steep. So I minded my own

business, making Cain's motto mine; and now feel so had, being quite

sure that it was his. And I wonder how many miles he will have tramped

back looking for it, and whether his dinner was in the pocket.




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