She ran from the mansion into the gardens and toward the forest. Too weak to continue, she dropped to her knees. Her scream was one of fury and frustration. She screamed until she was hoarse, shaking in the chilled air.
"I guess he told you," Han said and squatted beside her. "You know, to our kind, it's an honor to be blood bound to someone like him."
It should have been her instead of Jake! Damian's words swirled through her thoughts, along with the scent of his blood. The thought of drinking from him made her sick, and she pushed herself up to vomit.
"I want to die, Han," she cried. "I can't live like this! I'm a monster!"
"You have no idea what he went through to save you. Because of him, you're alive, and you still have a soul. If he didn't bind you, you'd be bound to Czerno, and then you'd really want to kill yourself," he said. "You're bound to our king, our god, our master. If anyone else saw you refuse him, they'd kill you for disrespecting him."
"I'm human, Han," she argued.
"Not anymore. You're one of us now."
"I won't do it," she swore. She threw up again, sick and weak.
"You have no choice, ikira."
What's done can't be undone. She wept, not objecting when Han deftly lifted her and carried her back to her room.