In the Tower Rooms--June.
I have been working in the office for a week, and it has been the
hardest week of my life. But please don't think that I have any
regrets--it is only that the world has been so lovely outside, and that
I have been shut in.
I am beginning to understand that the woman in the home has a freedom
which she doesn't sufficiently value. She can run down-town in the
morning; or slip out in the afternoon, or put off until to-morrow
something which should have been done to-day. But men can't run out or
slip away or put off--no matter if the sun is shining, or the birds
singing, or the wind calling, or the open road leading to adventure.
Yet there are compensations, and I am trying to see them. I am trying
to live up to my theories. And I am sustained by the thought that at
last I am a wage-earner--independent of any one--capable of buying my
own bread and butter, though all masculine help should fail!
Aunt Isabelle is a dear, and so is Susan Jenks. And that's another
thing to think about. What will the wage-earning part of the world do,
when there are no home-keepers left? If it were not for Aunt Isabelle
and Susan, there wouldn't be any one to trail after me with cushions
for my tired back, and cold things for me to drink on hot days, and hot
things to drink on cool days.
I begin to perceive faintly the masculine point of view. If I were a
man I should want a wife for just that--to toast my slippers before the
fire as they do in the old-fashioned stories, to have my dinner piping
hot, and to smooth the wrinkles out of my forehead.
That's why I'm not sure that I should make a comfortable sort of wife.
I can't quite see myself toasting the slippers. But I can see
Constance toasting them, or Leila--but Grace and I--you see, after all,
there are home women and the other kind, and I fancy that I'm the other
kind.
This, you'll understand, is a philosophy founded on the vast experience
of a week in the workaday world--I'll let you know later of any further
modification of my theories.
Well, the house seems empty with just the three of us, and Pittiwitz.
I miss Constance beyond words, and the beautiful baby. Constance
wanted to name her for me, but Gordon insisted that she should be
called after Constance, so they compromised on Mary-Constance, such a
long name for such a mite.
We all went to New York to see them off. By "all," I mean our
crowd--Aunt Frances and Grace, Leila and the General--oh, poor little
Leila--Delilah and Colin Quale, Aunt Isabelle and I, Susan Jenks with
the baby in her arms until the very last minute--and Porter Bigelow.