I didn't know and I didn't want to think about it.  Instead, I allowed myself a moment, a few, a dozen, a hundred, to revel in the arms of the only man who would ever own my heart. 

His bare torso was warm, firm, and very real, but I ran my hands over him like he might disappear.

I could touch him now, and not as a way to hurt or wound.  My hand on his chest spoke of the ownership I had been denying myself for five rough years. 

Five hopeless years.  Five hateful years.  Five lost years. 

"Morning, angel."  His voice came out of his chest in a touchable rumble that spoke of deep affection.  He kissed the top of my head, his familiar hand stroking over my hair. 

I shut my eyes, letting myself enjoy it, letting myself acknowledge just how much I needed it. 

This would take some getting used to.  I was still afraid to even hope I might get the chance. 

"Mm," I mumbled into his chest.  It didn't mean anything, just a general sound of contentment.   

He shifted me onto my back, propping up on one elbow close to my side. 

I touched his face.  Part of my mind was still in that fuzzy place between sleep and full cognizance.  "Are you real?" I whispered it like I was afraid someone else might hear the silly question. 

He grinned, shifting closer.  His free hand grabbed one of mine, bringing it to his lips.  He placed a soft, open-mouthed kiss on my palm.  His eyes smiled as he dragged the hand down, cupping it over his very happy morning erection.  "Is that real enough for you?"   

I glared at him. 

He threw his head back and laughed.

His laugh was wonderful, touchable.  I set my hand to his throat just to feel closer to it. 

His laughing eyes came back to mine, and his face sobered in one quick fall.  He touched my cheek.  "Jesus.  That look.  What are you trying to do to me here?"

I let my eyes answer that question.  With a groan, he leaned down and kissed me.  It was a tentative contact at first, his talented lips feeling at mine with utmost care, his own way of validating that I was real.

It was almost sweet and finished too quickly. 

He started to pull back, but I stopped him by grabbing his face, crushing his mouth to mine.

The need came sudden and dark.  I had to have him.  Had to.  On me, in me. 

I craved that most intimate connection, him in the deepest part of me, with ravenous simplicity. 

When he pulled back again I let him, my breath coming short.  "Now."  It was a plea, an order, a curse—all in one.      

"Well, if you insist," he muttered.  He was such a fake.  He'd lost his senses several thumping heartbeats earlier and we both knew it. 

He descended on me again, mouth on my jaw, kissing down to my neck, over my collarbone, moving down.

He peeled off my oversized cat T-shirt, lips coming back to my bare skin. 

When he sucked my nipples, my back arched off the bed, my toes curling in delight.  I was so primed that I thought he might bring me over with that contact alone, but he didn't linger there long, moving inexorably lower, and lower, nuzzling between my legs, eating me out like I was a feast and he was starved. 

That made two of us. 

When he'd—put a fork in me, done—finished me, he laid his cheek against my inner thigh, his drowning blue eyes aimed up the line of my body at mine, and managed to look winsome.

I shut my eyes and stroked his hair.  I was having a battle with myself, feeling too emotional, wanting to tamp it down, to reprimand the part of me that lived for this, that thought my entire reason for existing was wrapped up in it. 

In the end, emotion won, aided by sensation.  He was licking his way up my stomach, nuzzling, kissing, touching everything with his fingertips like he would memorize me, though I knew he'd burned every detail of me into his brain a very long time ago.    

This was just a refresher course.

By the time his mouth made its way to mine I was near incoherent with need again. 

He raised his upper body over me, bracing with his arms, his lower body pressed against me, staring down at me.

The look on his face then was hard to describe.

His blue eyes were filled with a dark light.  There was desire, yes, hunger, of a certainty, but also there was disbelief, reverence, hope.  Fear.  So much fear. 

But above all, there was need.  It was like the sun, so brilliant it was blinding.

I wondered what he saw in my eyes at that moment, if my desperation was as transparent as his.  God, I hoped not.  It was too much just having to witness his.  Overkill.     

He took me with ferocious delight, reveling in me, our hands clutching, every finger entwined. 

He drove in and out of me with fast, solid strokes, kissing me, then pulling back, his eyes delving into my soul as his body plundered mine, then kissing me.  Again and again. 

In spite of my better judgment, if I had such a thing, I didn't hold back any more than he did, taking fervent joy in every touch, every contact.

Every possession—physical, spiritual. 

When I came, it was with our eyes locked and his name on my lips like an invocation.

My name on his lips was more like a prayer.

I thought I was finished, vanquished, filled up, satiated, but he was far from done with me. 

He was indefatigable.  Insatiable.  A tireless machine.  

This had been the nature of our separation.  It was always a flood or a drought for us.  I wondered if we'd ever get past that.




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