Beulah sat looking at him, stunned, bewildered, her tearless eyes

strained and frightened in their expression. The transient

illumination in his face had faded, like sunset tints, leaving dull,

leaden clouds behind. His compressed lips were firm again, and the

misty eyes became coldly glittering, as one sees stars brighten in a

frosty air.

He put on his hat, and they looked at each other fixedly.

"You are not in earnest? you are not going to quit your home?" cried

Beulah, in a broken, unsteady tone.

"Yes--going into the far East; to the ruined altars of Baalbec; to

Meroe, to Tartary, India, China, and only Fate knows where else.

Perhaps find a cool Nebo in some Himalayan range. Going? Yes. Did

you suppose I meant only to operate on your sympathies? I know you

too well. What is it to you whether I live or die? whether my weary

feet rest in an Indian jungle, or on a sunny slope of the city

cemetery? Yes, I am going very soon, and this is our last meeting. I

shall not again disturb you in your ambitious pursuits. Ah, child--"

"Oh, don't go! don't leave me! I beg, I implore you, not to leave

me. Oh, I am so desolate! don't forsake me! I could not bear to know

you were gone. Oh, don't leave me!" She sprang up, and, throwing her

arms round his neck, clung to him, trembling like a frightened

child. But there was no relaxation of his pale, fixed features, as

he coldly answered: "Once resolved, I never waver. So surely as I live I shall go. It

might have been otherwise, but you decided it yourself. An hour ago

you held my destiny in your hands; now it is fixed. I should have

gone six years since had I not indulged a lingering hope of

happiness in your love. Child, don't shiver and cling to me so.

Oceans will soon roll between us, and, for a time, you will have no

leisure to regret my absence. Henceforth we are strangers."

"No; that shall never be. You do not mean it; you know it is

impossible. You know that I prize your friendship above every

earthly thing. You know that I look up to you as to no one else.

That I shall be miserable, oh, how miserable, if you leave me! Oh,

sir, I have mourned over your coldness and indifference; don't cast

me off! Don't go to distant lands and leave me to struggle without

aid or counsel in this selfish, unfriendly world! My heart dies

within me at the thought of your being where I shall not be able to

see you. Oh, my guardian, don't forsake me!"




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