"Anna and sin--I cannot connect them, I cannot believe it!"

"Darya Alexandrovna," he said, now looking straight into Dolly's

kindly, troubled face, and feeling that his tongue was being

loosened in spite of himself, "I would give a great deal for

doubt to be still possible. When I doubted, I was miserable, but

it was better than now. When I doubted, I had hope; but now

there is no hope, and still I doubt of everything. I am in such

doubt of everything that I even hate my son, and sometimes do not

believe he is my son. I am very unhappy."

He had no need to say that. Darya Alexandrovna had seen that as

soon as he glanced into her face; and she felt sorry for him, and

her faith in the innocence of her friend began to totter.

"Oh, this is awful, awful! But can it be true that you are

resolved on a divorce?"

"I am resolved on extreme measures. There is nothing else for me

to do."

"Nothing else to do, nothing else to do..." she replied, with

tears in her eyes. "Oh no, don't say nothing else to do!" she

said.

"What is horrible in a trouble of this kind is that one cannot,

as in any other--in loss, in death--bear one's trouble in peace,

but that one must act," said he, as though guessing her thought.

"One must get out of the humiliating position in which one is

placed; one can't live _à trois_."

"I understand, I quite understand that," said Dolly, and her head

sank. She was silent for a little, thinking of herself, of her

own grief in her family, and all at once, with an impulsive

movement, she raised her head and clasped her hands with an

imploring gesture. "But wait a little! You are a Christian.

Think of her! What will become of her, if you cast her off?"

"I have thought, Darya Alexandrovna, I have thought a great

deal," said Alexey Alexandrovitch. His face turned red in

patches, and his dim eyes looked straight before him. Darya

Alexandrovna at that moment pitied him with all her heart. "That

was what I did indeed when she herself made known to me my

humiliation; I left everything as of old. I gave her a chance to

reform, I tried to save her. And with what result? She would

not regard the slightest request--that she should observe

decorum," he said, getting heated. "One may save anyone who does

not want to be ruined; but if the whole nature is so corrupt, so

depraved, that ruin itself seems to be her salvation, what's to

be done?"




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