"Hi." She whispered.
"Hi." I responded softly.
"I haven't been much of a wife lately, I'm sorry."
I stroked her face softly with the tips of my fingers, "That's all right."
"How have you been managing everything? You're not questioning your faith in God are you?" She asked.
I thought about it a little, "For a little while I was." I admitted truthfully.
"But you're not now?"
I shook my head no.
"Why?" She asked.
"God gave me you and that act of love broke up the bitter downward cycle of my life. I know He cares about me and I guess knowing that helps me understand that He is not to blame for this, but that this whole situation is just an example of how life's not fair and how brutal it can be to live through at times."
Asia nodded and stroked my face with her fingers, "How you've grown honey!"
We were quiet for a moment. I saw a tear well up and slip down her face, "I miss him."
I nodded.
"I had so many plans. I know you did too John."
"Yeah." I admitted a little raw. "There will be more kids Asia." I said softly, as I wiped the moisture of the tear from off her face.
"I know. I think I want to wait though, until after the Code is over and done with."
I nodded, agreeing with her.
"That means we're going to have to times things a little better throughout the month." She said hesitantly not sure how I would take it.
"Tell me when and where and I'll be there." I said.
The first smile I'd seen in a long time graced her face then, as she reached out to hug me. I hugged her back.
"I love you so much John Baptist Kilroy!"
"And I love you cute, hot bodied, little Asian chick!"
"Hey!" She exclaimed slapping my back affronted at my choice of words.
"Hey what? If you can defame me with my awful name then I can objectify you in return."
"It doesn't work like that." She said with a smile in her voice.
"Oh yes it does babycakes!"
She giggled in my arms and I held her tighter to me glad to have her back.