“There was one other quality of the martlet,” said Gamache.
“Yes?”
“Do you know why it’s always drawn without feet?”
Finney remained silent.
“Because it’s on its way to heaven. According to legend a martlet never touches the earth, it flies all the time. I believe Charles Morrow wanted to give that to his children. He wanted them to soar. To find, if not heaven, then at least happiness. Oh, I have slipped the surly bonds of earth,” said Gamache. “You quoted the poem ‘High Flight’ when we first talked.”
“Charles’s favorite. He was a naval aviator in the war. And danced the skies on laughter silvered wings. Beautiful.”
Finney looked around, at the lake, the forest, the mountains. He opened his mouth then closed it. Gamache waited. Finally he spoke.
“You’re very like your father, you know.”
The words went out into the world and joined the golden sunshine streaming through the gathering clouds and onto the water and the dock and warming their faces. The words joined the glittering waves and the bobbing insects and butterflies and birds and shimmering leaves.
Armand Gamache closed his eyes and walked deep into the shadows, deep into the longhouse where all his experiences and memories lived, where everyone he’d ever met and everything he’d ever done or thought or said waited. He walked right to the very back and there he found a room, closed but not locked. A room he’d never dared enter. From under the door there came not a stench, not darkness, not a moan of a terrible threat. But something much more frightening.
Light glowed from under that door.
Inside were his parents, he knew. Where young Armand had placed them. To be safe and sound. And perfect. Away from the accusations, the taunts, the knowing smiles.
All Armand’s life Honoré had lived in light. Unchallenged.
The rest of the world might whisper “Coward,” “Traitor,” and his son could smile. His father was safe, locked away.
Armand put out his hand, and touched the door.
The last room, the last door. The last territory to explore didn’t hold monstrous hate or bitterness or rancid resentments. It held love. Blinding, beautiful love.
Armand Gamache gave it the tiniest of pushes and the door swung open.
“What was my father like?”
Finney paused before speaking.
“He was a coward, but then you knew that. He really was, you know. It’s not just the ravings of a mad Anglo population.”
“I know he was,” said Gamache, his voice stronger than he felt.
“And you know what happened later?”
Gamache nodded. “I know the facts.”
He raced back down the longhouse, past the staring and astonished memories, desperate to get to the room and the door he’d been foolish enough to open. But it was too late. The door was open, the light had escaped.
He stared now into the most unsightly face in the world.
“Honoré Gamache and I had very different lives. We were on opposite sides very often. But he did the most extraordinary thing. Something I’ve never forgotten, something that I take with me even today. Do you know what your father did?”
Bert Finney didn’t look at the Chief Inspector as he spoke, but Gamache had the impression of immense scrutiny.
“He changed his mind,” said Finney.
He struggled to his feet, wiping his balding head with a handkerchief and replacing the floppy hat Gamache had given him. He brought himself erect, achieving every inch of the height he still had, then turned and faced Gamache, who’d also risen and now towered over him. Finney said nothing, simply stared. Then his ugly, ravaged face broke into a smile and he put out his hand, touching Gamache on the arm. It was a contact like many Gamache had had in his life, both given and received. But there was an intimacy about this that felt almost like a violation. Finney locked eyes with Gamache, then turned and made his slow progress along the dock to the shore.
“You lied to me, monsieur,” Gamache called after him.
The elderly man stopped, paused, then turned, squinting into the shafts of sun, made brighter by the shadows. He brought a quivering hand to his brow, to stare back at Gamache.
“You seem surprised, Chief Inspector. Surely people lie to you all the time.”
“It’s true. It’s not the lying that surprised me, but what you chose to lie about.”
“Really? And what was that?”
“Yesterday I asked my team to look into the backgrounds of everyone involved in this case—”
“Very wise.”