He figured she was Cheng Weiguo’s one and only daughter and Cheng Weiguo mentioned his daughter on multiple public occasions, so she must be Cheng Weiguo’s weak spot. He figured that as long as he made her live a life worse than hell, Cheng Weiguo would definitely live a life worse than hell too.
But in the end, while he really made her live a life worse than hell and he really did achieve his objective, Cheng Weiguo was still living just fine in the world. In fact, he lived happily and freely.
He racked his brain planning everything, but he never actually achieved his desired goal.
The person who should’ve truly been punished never received his punishment. If that wasn’t enough, he loved her but didn’t dare admit it, and he was afraid he was too captivated by her, so he found a random woman to marry in a hurry. Cheng Weiwan wanted to leave, but what about him? He didn’t want to let her go, and he even cruelly raped her…
Funny! How truly hilarious!
What was funny was that if it wasn’t enough for him to hurt her, he even got her pregnant, which led to her being embarrassed by Cheng Weiguo like that. If that still wasn’t enough, Cheng Weiguo wanted to also cut all ties with her, which led to her being ignored for three whole years…
I was a freaking moron to have come up with such a hilarious joke!
Is there anyone more moronic than me in this world?
With that thought, Han Zhifan started laughing as he thought it was a really funny joke.
The sound of his laughter grew until his eyes eventually turned red.
What was he going to do? His heart was aching so fiercely that he thought he could die at any time from the pain.
What was he going to do? He was a little out of breath and he felt like it was quite hard to breathe. It felt like he was going to die from a lack of oxygen.
What was he going to do? He suddenly felt like an idiot, a complete idiot…
What was he going to? He was panicking – the kind of panic where he couldn’t speak. He treated her like that and hurt her like that time and time again…
She must be really disappointed in me… She mustn’t dare to believe me…
So what should I do?
Before finding out about her and Cheng Weiguo’s relationship, he realized he was falling in love with her. At the time, he could use Lili as a way to mask his feelings.
But what about now?
There was no way he could use revenge to fool and deceive himself any longer.
Aside from being annoyed, he was regretful, he blamed himself, and he was in love.
He truly loved her. It didn’t matter if she believed him or not, because he truly loved her. But was he still worthy of her?
No, I’m not worthy!
How could I have the face to actually hope of being worthy of loving her?!
I’m truly shameless!
Yeah! How could I be so shameless?!
With that thought, Han Zhifan suddenly reached out and violently slapped his own face.
It seemed like Han Zhifan felt like one slap wasn’t enough, so he raised his other hand and slapped himself on the face several more times.
Did it hurt?
A lot.
But compared to the pain he inflicted on her, what was this little bit of pain?
Lin Sheng was right. Before Lin Sheng helped carry out his plan with her, Lin Sheng asked if he was sure. Lin Sheng said it might not be a good idea to do this to a woman…
At the time, he didn’t think twice about it and replied he was sure he wanted to go through with it.
If he could turn back time, knowing he would end up like this, then he definitely, definitely would’ve replied, “I’ve changed my mind. I don’t want to do it.”
But the situation had already gotten to this point; time couldn’t turn back. The world had no cure for regret. Aside from the annoyance and regret, he should continue by thinking about what he should do now.