Women in Love
Page 296That evening Ursula returned home very bright-eyed and wondrous--which
irritated her people. Her father came home at suppertime, tired after
the evening class, and the long journey home. Gudrun was reading, the
mother sat in silence.
Suddenly Ursula said to the company at large, in a bright voice,
'Rupert and I are going to be married tomorrow.' Her father turned round, stiffly.
'You what?' he said.
'Tomorrow!' echoed Gudrun.
'Indeed!' said the mother.
But Ursula only smiled wonderfully, and did not reply.
about.' 'Yes,' said Ursula. 'Why not?' Those two words, from her, always drove
him mad. 'Everything is all right--we shall go to the registrar's
office-' There was a second's hush in the room, after Ursula's blithe vagueness.
'REALLY, Ursula!' said Gudrun.
'Might we ask why there has been all this secrecy?' demanded the
mother, rather superbly.
'But there hasn't,' said Ursula. 'You knew.' 'Who knew?' now cried the father. 'Who knew? What do you mean by your
"you knew"?' He was in one of his stupid rages, she instantly closed against him.
'Of course you knew,' she said coolly. 'You knew we were going to get
'We knew you were going to get married, did we? Knew! Why, does anybody
know anything about you, you shifty bitch!' 'Father!' cried Gudrun, flushing deep in violent remonstrance. Then, in
a cold, but gentle voice, as if to remind her sister to be tractable:
'But isn't it a FEARFULLY sudden decision, Ursula?' she asked.
'No, not really,' replied Ursula, with the same maddening cheerfulness.
'He's been WANTING me to agree for weeks--he's had the licence ready.
Only I--I wasn't ready in myself. Now I am ready--is there anything to
be disagreeable about?' 'Certainly not,' said Gudrun, but in a tone of cold reproof. 'You are
perfectly free to do as you like.' '"Ready in yourself"--YOURSELF, that's all that matters, isn't it! "I
YOURSELF, you're of some importance, aren't you?' She drew herself up and set back her throat, her eyes shining yellow
and dangerous.
'I am to myself,' she said, wounded and mortified. 'I know I am not to
anybody else. You only wanted to BULLY me--you never cared for my
happiness.' He was leaning forward watching her, his face intense like a spark.
'Ursula, what are you saying? Keep your tongue still,' cried her
mother.