Till Dark

Jordan rubbed her neck and shoulders. She had missed so much since she was gone and now she had to get caught back up. Luckily today was one of the days that Cody went to pre-school and she was able to get a lot done. It helped for her to be so busy because it kept her mind off of Andy. Whenever she found herself thinking of him she would always remember that one magical afternoon that they shared. She was finding it hard to get him out of her thoughts and keep him out. There was something about him that she just could not block him out of her mind like she could other guys. As hard as she tried Jordan could remember every touch and every look that passed between them. The harder she fought the more difficult it was to concentrate when all she was able to see was his smile and those beautiful hazel eyes. "Okay Jordan you know that this is never going to work so just put him out of your mind completely. Try as hard as she might it just seemed to be an impossible task. Everywhere she looked he was there smiling at her or telling some joke. Finally frustrated she headed out of her office for a nice long soak in the tub. "I'll wash the whole thing out with a good old fashioned bubble bath and then I will be able to think more clearly.

The bubbles felt like heaven and Jordan felt the tension of the past few weeks leaving her body for what she hoped would be for good. She wondered how things had gotten so mixed up and messed up. Andy of course was still in her mind. She wondered what he was doing right now. She wanted to know if his thoughts were on her, like hers were of him. Fear kept her from wondering to long though. She was not ready for a man like him. Thing was Jordan was not sure she would ever be ready for a man like him she told herself. He was the type of man that she had dreamed of finding when she were younger but, then she had met Darien and he was the person that touched her heart. Thinking back she could not really remember mooning over him like she was Andy but that didn't mean that their love was not real. "It's just infatuation, pure sexual attraction nothing more. I just need to get in there and get back to my routine." Jordan spoke the words out loud but somehow they didn't seem to be the truth she could not even fool her own heart into believing that. She let out the water and reached for one of her big fluffy white towels that were her favorite. Wrapping her robe around her, she headed downstairs to put the kettle on for a cup of tea to help soothe her jangled nerves.