“He prefers his loneliness,” she said. “All in all, Malcolm was right. It was better this way.”
I crossed my arms. “Let me tell you about Malcolm.”
And so I told my mother about my father’s “change of state” and all that followed. I told her everything he’d told me. After I’d finished talking, she didn’t say a word.
We rode the horses back to the stable — walking first, then breaking into a trot, then a gallop. I hung on to the saddle, afraid I’d be thrown off, but I managed to hold my seat. My mother and Osceola flew ahead of me.
Back at the stables, we groomed and fed the horses. When Mãe wasn’t looking, I gave Johnny a good-night kiss on his neck.
Finally she spoke. “I’m going out. Want to come?”
Chapter Fourteen
The parking lot was full, and my mother had to park the pickup on the street. We walked toward a long white building with a neon sign in a window reading FLO’S PLACE.
Inside, the tables all were occupied, and the bar had standing room only. The bartender called out, “Hey, Sara!” Mãe stopped here and there to say hello as we made our way toward a corner booth.
Dashay sat with a muscular man wearing a black cowboy hat. They were drinking something red. My mother slid into the booth, and I sat on the end.
Dashay said, “Ariella, this is Bennett. He’s my boyfriend.”
I shook his hand. He had a strong grip and a beautiful smile. “I like your hat,” I said.
“Hear that? She likes the hat,” he said. “Dashay’s always telling me to take off the hat. Lose the hat, she says.”
“Do you have a boyfriend?” Dashay asked me.
“Sort of,” I said.
“What’s he like?”
“He’s quiet,” I said. “He has long hair.” I wondered if my mother had a boyfriend.
She looked at me and said, “No.”
A server brought us two glasses of Picardo, and my mother raised her glass in a toast. “To justice,” she said. Dashay and Bennett looked puzzled, but they drank.
I took a sip. Picardo was an acquired taste; this time I liked its smoky tang. When I looked around, I noticed that most of the others seemed to be drinking Picardo, too. Here and there I saw a beer or a glass of white wine, but the glasses of red liquid were twice as prevalent. “Why is almost everyone drinking the same thing?”
“Creatures of habit,” Mãe said.
“What makes it so red?” I asked.
“Supposed to be a secret recipe,” Bennett said.
“I read somewhere that the color comes from crushed insects.” Dashay held her glass up, and rays from the setting sun outside gave the liquid a garnet glow.
“Very appetizing.” My mother hadn’t smiled once since our talk, and it made me realize how often she had, before. “Ariella, I need to talk to these friends. You’re welcome to listen, but it will be the same things we’ve been talking about for hours. Or, you can play the jukebox.” She dug into her pockets and pulled out a handful of change.
I didn’t want to hear the stories again. In any case, I had my own thinking to do. I took the money and my drink, and headed for the jukebox: a glowing red, purple, and yellow monster of a machine. The only one I’d seen before was at the soda shop in Saratoga Springs, and this one was three times its size.
None of the songs’ titles was familiar, so I chose them randomly: “Late Night, Maudlin Street” by Morrissey; “Marooned on Piano Island” by the Blood Brothers; “Lake of Fire” by the Meat Puppets; “Spook City USA” by the Misfits. I fed the machine quarters. When the music began, it wasn’t any one of the songs I’d picked, but a country song about a ring of fire. Everyone in the bar seemed to know it; they all came in on the chorus, except for my mother and her friends, deep in conversation in the corner booth.
I sat on a stool next to the jukebox, and looked at the others, who glanced at me from time to time. Were they all vampires? Or did this little corner of Florida simply have an unusual craving for red beverages?
They looked like “normal people,” I thought — they varied in age and height and skin color, they wore mostly casual clothes. Two men wore mechanics overalls, and one couple wore suits. It could have been any small-town bar, except for the preponderance of red drinks, and the songs on the jukebox — and, it now occurred to me, the fact that no one in the place was overweight.
As I watched the crowd at the bar — the server massaged the shoulders of one of the regulars, the bartender sang and sipped from his own dark red glass — I thought of my father, sitting in his green leather chair, drinking his evening cocktail, alone. I wondered what color shirt he was wearing. And, although I was tired of thinking about his past, it began to replay in my mind again.
When I was very young, even before I could talk much, my father gave me a picture book called Can You Spot the Six Differences? Of course I couldn’t read the title, but I grasped the concept instantly: two nearly identical drawings (featuring animals and space aliens, usually) sat side by side, only small differences between them: the shape of an eye might be subtly altered; a cat’s tail or a shadow might be missing. Although I couldn’t say what the differences were, I could point to them, and my father nodded approval.
As I thought of my father’s story, and my mother’s, the differences between them stood out in sharp relief. Of all the discrepancies, the detail that bothered me most concerned Dennis — that he had closed the door of Malcolm’s car. I knew how much my father trusted Dennis, depended on his loyalty.