“I’m not.”
“Good.” I felt his hand on mine and opened my eyes. He stood, pulling back the curtain and waiting for me.
“We’re leaving?” I hadn’t seen him pay the check.
“Not entirely. Unless you’re tired, I was thinking we’d have champagne on the roof deck.”
I smiled up at him and rose, grabbing my purse. “You know you only have to mention champagne and I’ll be there.”
“I was counting on that.” His hand on the small of my back, I ducked slightly to pass through the curtained opening, and we moved into the main restaurant area. The pianist was now singing “The Way You Look Tonight” and it felt surreal, winding through the tables, glasses chinking, jewels sparkling, Brad’s hand on me, his masculinity invading my senses. He guided me to a discreet elevator that was open, waiting. We entered the industrial space—one not designed for patrons—wide, steel and filthy, smelling of grease and food. I stood close to him, not wanting to get dirty, and he wrapped a hand around my waist.
“Are we on the wrong elevator?” The setting was such a contrast from the splendor of the restaurant that I felt like I had just exited a movie set and was now backstage.
“Just think of it as adding to the exclusivity factor.” The doors opened, and we stepped into a room smaller than my bedroom, with only a wall of electrical boxes and switches. A large machine vaguely resembling a giant air conditioner hummed to the right of us. Brad stepped forward, through an exit door, propping the door open as he held it open for me. I stepped through, and suddenly was out into the night air.
Forty-Nine
We stood on a rooftop. Brad had referred to it as the “roof deck”—but that was a bit of an overstatement. Roofing material was underfoot, and there was no railing to stop us from falling over the edge, pipes and electrical systems surrounded us. But the view was spectacular, huge buildings all around us, a rainbow of a thousand city lights before us. We gingerly moved forward, stepping along a small walkway, through two humming generators, until we stood on empty, unobstructed roof. Ahead, a small table had been set up, complete with a white tablecloth, two place settings and a candle. Next to it sat a silver stand with champagne chilling. To the left was ten-foot-high arched glass, the ceiling of the restaurant. I walked over and looked through the yellow glass, seeing the small round tables, black-coated waiters, and the illuminated pianist, all oblivious of our view. Brad stepped forward, standing beside me, looking down on the scene, difficult to see through the dirty glass. Something caught his eye and he moved down to a crouch, fiddling with a small window on the side of the arch. I started to ask what he was doing when, suddenly, there was movement beneath his hands, and I could hear the piano, hear “What a Wonderful World” softly drifting out from below Brad, through the window he just cracked.
“And you say you’re not romantic.”
He stood, dusting off his hands. “I have my moments.” He put his hands in his pockets, looking at me across the roof. “You look beautiful.”
I blushed. “Thank you.” This evening had not gone as I had expected. An expensive restaurant, yes; this rooftop scene with a quiet, subdued Brad, no. It was not any side of Brad I had ever seen. I was suddenly nervous, off guard.
He stepped slowly forward, keeping his hands in his pockets, and watched me. Tilted his head to the side and really looked at me. I felt his gaze, penetrating, and averted my eyes, feeling bare and exposed. Then he cocked his head toward the table. “Shall we?”
I lifted my eyes, meeting his strong gaze, and nodded, walking over to the table, to the chair he pulled out for me. He stayed on his feet, undoing the champagne bottle and popping the cork, the sound of bubbles reaching my ears. I intentionally relaxed my hands, setting my purse on the rough, pebbled roof. Why am I so nervous?
Once he had poured our champagne, he sat down across from me and leaned forward, holding his champagne flute out. “A toast.”
I raised my eyebrows at him. More romance?
“To the most wonderful woman I have ever met. May we spend the rest of our lives together.”
“That’s your toast?” My brow furrowed and I kept my glass raised, interrupting his sip of the bubbly liquid.
He looked at me, wounded. “You don’t approve?”
“As I’m sure you have figured out by now, I have a very healthy self-esteem, bordering on egotism.”
“Bordering on?”
“Shut up. Regardless, you have been with a disgusting amount of women, and will be with a hundred more before you die. For me to be the ‘most wonderful’ woman you have ever met, and you toasting to ‘spending the rest of your life’ with me rings a little...” I tilted my head.
“Fake?”
I made a face, trying to think up the right word. “Bullshitty.”
“That’s not a word.”
“I’m pretty sure you can figure out what I mean by my nonword.” I went ahead and took a sip of the damn champagne, which went down perfectly.
“Do you want me to work on a different toast?” He looked at me with amusement.
“No. I believed you earlier when you said I looked beautiful. I’ll keep that part.” I smiled at him over the rim of my flute. A breeze floated over us and I turned my face into the wind, looking out over the city lights.
“Happy?” Brad’s voice was quiet in the night air.
“Very,” I murmured. “But I feel a bit like Cinderella. Like I am in a wonderful, perfect world, and tomorrow morning it will all disappear. Which, I guess, it will.” I set down my glass and looked at him. “Brad, you don’t know if you will be able to protect me. You don’t know what your father will say. Everything could change come morning, and I could be in danger.”
He stayed silent for a minute, studying me. “You said a few days ago that you loved me.”
God, all he ever does is change the subject. I sighed. “Yes.”
“Why do you love me?”
“What?” I was caught off guard. Brad discussing feelings was taking this date to an even stranger place. “Is this you fishing for compliments or being insecure?”
He looked at me steadily, his strong build sitting back, one hand loosely on his glass. The man looked as if he’d never had an insecure thought in his life, and probably hadn’t. “It’s me wanting to know if you truly know what love is.”
“Do you?”