She tried to hold her breath but never could go all the way. After that she would never have thoughts or attempt that again. Why was she broken? She didn`t have an answer. She did know that almost everything in her life was miserable. Nobody that she wanted to be was there for her enough.She didn`t have the advantages that other people get. She gives her all is relationships and they all turn out to be dissapointments. Her now ex girlfriendwho she thought was her all and agreed to marry. Turned out to fake and was driven insane by constant arguing. What does she live for? She lives life day by day. She tries to find stuff to do that she can enjoy. Hopefully life will be better.