"Falling in love will be the best thing that will ever happen to me."-Yes that's what I thought it would be some years ago. I always dreamed of falling in love with a beautiful girl and spend my life with her being happy. It was my ultimate wish since I took my first step as a teenager. I still remember that. I was so stupid that I believed in every things that were depicted in the movies would be true. I thought it would be just as simple as that. But as I began to understand what a true love is and how much risky thing it is, I slowly understood that it would not be simple to gain your love. After I fell in love with jenny, I thought it would be totally impossible for me to get her. Then I began to understand that it was absolutely not easy to get the person you liked or ever loved. There would be twists, turns and bumps to achieve that success of being with the person you wish to be with. In these recent years I felt everything from pain, loneliness, desolate and being lost. I was so lost in the trap of love and was so blind to only reach that goal. The goal of getting a chance to love her. I wanted to show her that there was no better person to love her like I do. With these things in mind, I went and went onto the deep ocean of love and emotions and forgot every other things. And now, this was the chance I got. The chance to be with her but not in a way I thought. I'm with a person whom I fear that I may lose soon. I guess this is my punishment of opening my heart to someone so easily. Things have gotten worse since. All these years I have suffered enough and when I finally had a chance, I'm in the verge of losing it again.