While I finished complimenting her, she spoke something about herself. But the only thing she spoke was about her daily activities. She spoke things like when she gets up, what she does after waking up and when she sleeps and things. And suddenly my useless mouth asked about whether she has a boyfriend or not without even listening what she was talking about. This showed that I wasn't paying attention to her words. She paused for a second and pardoned me. But she heard me what I asked about. Her smiley face turned black and she gave the answer in a rush. She said that she had a boyfriend who lived out of the country and visits her sometimes. She also said that she was deeply in love with him since her childhood. My heart skipped a beat. I was heartbroken after hearing that. I remembered every single time I spent on becoming a VC. All of my struggle in becoming a VC flashed back into my head when she said that. I thought like my hard work was for nothing. During our first meet, I remembered how I complimented her and how she suddenly broke my heart.
The lonely night came back and it was the second time my heart felt alone. My hope was unexpectedly shattered and everything was gone. I did my best to get close to her but what now? I never thought that she had a boyfriend. I laughed at myself for how madly, deeply and truly I was in love with her. I somehow managed to control my feelings when she said that and smiled in return but after returning home I was filled with tears. I lost my direction. I was lost. I felt something was broken inside me. Even the view of the town at night which I loved so much seemed cheerless. The moon was alone and the stars lost their path. The moon was my only companion that never left me alone. It shone brightly even during my time of darkness. Even if I was alone it was looking right at me. The moon understands me because it knows what it feels to be alone.