Women in Love

'You do?' 'Yes. I want the finality of love.' 'The finality of love,' repeated Gerald. And he waited for a moment.

'Just one woman?' he added. The evening light, flooding yellow along

the fields, lit up Birkin's face with a tense, abstract steadfastness.

Gerald still could not make it out.

'Yes, one woman,' said Birkin.

But to Gerald it sounded as if he were insistent rather than confident.

'I don't believe a woman, and nothing but a woman, will ever make my

life,' said Gerald.

'Not the centre and core of it--the love between you and a woman?'

asked Birkin.

Gerald's eyes narrowed with a queer dangerous smile as he watched the

other man.

'I never quite feel it that way,' he said.

'You don't? Then wherein does life centre, for you?' 'I don't know--that's what I want somebody to tell me. As far as I can

make out, it doesn't centre at all. It is artificially held TOGETHER by

the social mechanism.' Birkin pondered as if he would crack something.

'I know,' he said, 'it just doesn't centre. The old ideals are dead as

nails--nothing there. It seems to me there remains only this perfect

union with a woman--sort of ultimate marriage--and there isn't anything

else.' 'And you mean if there isn't the woman, there's nothing?' said Gerald.

'Pretty well that--seeing there's no God.' 'Then we're hard put to it,' said Gerald. And he turned to look out of

the window at the flying, golden landscape.

Birkin could not help seeing how beautiful and soldierly his face was,

with a certain courage to be indifferent.

'You think its heavy odds against us?' said Birkin.

'If we've got to make our life up out of a woman, one woman, woman

only, yes, I do,' said Gerald. 'I don't believe I shall ever make up MY

life, at that rate.' Birkin watched him almost angrily.

'You are a born unbeliever,' he said.

'I only feel what I feel,' said Gerald. And he looked again at Birkin

almost sardonically, with his blue, manly, sharp-lighted eyes. Birkin's

eyes were at the moment full of anger. But swiftly they became

troubled, doubtful, then full of a warm, rich affectionateness and

laughter.

'It troubles me very much, Gerald,' he said, wrinkling his brows.

'I can see it does,' said Gerald, uncovering his mouth in a manly,

quick, soldierly laugh.

Gerald was held unconsciously by the other man. He wanted to be near

him, he wanted to be within his sphere of influence. There was

something very congenial to him in Birkin. But yet, beyond this, he did

not take much notice. He felt that he, himself, Gerald, had harder and

more durable truths than any the other man knew. He felt himself older,

more knowing. It was the quick-changing warmth and venality and

brilliant warm utterance he loved in his friend. It was the rich play

of words and quick interchange of feelings he enjoyed. The real content

of the words he never really considered: he himself knew better.