Women in Love

'Don't come any further with me,' she said, in her barely audible

voice. 'I don't want you any further.' He bade her good-night, watched her across to the stairs and mount

slowly. Then he closed the door and came back to Gudrun. Gudrun rose

also, to go.

'A queer being, my mother,' he said.

'Yes,' replied Gudrun.

'She has her own thoughts.' 'Yes,' said Gudrun.

Then they were silent.

'You want to go?' he asked. 'Half a minute, I'll just have a horse put

in--' 'No,' said Gudrun. 'I want to walk.' He had promised to walk with her down the long, lonely mile of drive,

and she wanted this.

'You might JUST as well drive,' he said.

'I'd MUCH RATHER walk,' she asserted, with emphasis.

'You would! Then I will come along with you. You know where your things

are? I'll put boots on.' He put on a cap, and an overcoat over his evening dress. They went out

into the night.

'Let us light a cigarette,' he said, stopping in a sheltered angle of

the porch. 'You have one too.' So, with the scent of tobacco on the night air, they set off down the

dark drive that ran between close-cut hedges through sloping meadows.

He wanted to put his arm round her. If he could put his arm round her,

and draw her against him as they walked, he would equilibriate himself.

For now he felt like a pair of scales, the half of which tips down and

down into an indefinite void. He must recover some sort of balance. And

here was the hope and the perfect recovery.

Blind to her, thinking only of himself, he slipped his arm softly round

her waist, and drew her to him. Her heart fainted, feeling herself

taken. But then, his arm was so strong, she quailed under its powerful

close grasp. She died a little death, and was drawn against him as they

walked down the stormy darkness. He seemed to balance her perfectly in

opposition to himself, in their dual motion of walking. So, suddenly,

he was liberated and perfect, strong, heroic.

He put his hand to his mouth and threw his cigarette away, a gleaming

point, into the unseen hedge. Then he was quite free to balance her.

'That's better,' he said, with exultancy.

The exultation in his voice was like a sweetish, poisonous drug to her.

Did she then mean so much to him! She sipped the poison.

'Are you happier?' she asked, wistfully.

'Much better,' he said, in the same exultant voice, 'and I was rather

far gone.' She nestled against him. He felt her all soft and warm, she was the

rich, lovely substance of his being. The warmth and motion of her walk

suffused through him wonderfully.