This Man Confessed

‘What the hell have I got myself into, Ava?’ Kate’s question snaps me from my disturbing thoughts.

‘Love?’ I blurt before I can think of whether or not it’s a good thing to say. Her wide blues tells me it’s not. ‘You’re going to deny it again, are’t you?’

‘No,’ she whispers. ‘I think we’re past all that bullshit.’

‘We’re past it?’ I laugh. ‘Kate, we were past it weeks ago.’ I’m completely exasperated, but so relieved. My blind friend has finally seen the light, or admitted that she seen it long ago—whichever. I don’t honestly care. ‘He’s at the bar, and he…’ I pause, quickly reining in what I was about to say. I’m not forewarning her that Sam knows about Dan. That’s for them to sort out.

‘He’s what?’ She looks all panicky which just reaffirms my decision to hold back. She’ll do a bunk, I know she will. She’ll assume the worst and flee, not giving Sam the opportunity to express his thoughts.

‘He’s waiting for you.’ I finish.

Her whole body relaxes and an air of contentment seems to form a haze around her. ‘So I should go?’ she asks, looking for reassurance. It’s rare to see her doubt herself or ask for encouragement or guidance.

‘You should go.’ I confirm on a grin. ‘You have to take a chance, Kate. I think you’ll be surprised where Sam leads you.’

‘Do you?’

‘I really do,’ I smile and take my unsure friend in my arms and squeeze all of the uncertainties out of her. ‘Please go and talk to him. And let him talk, too.’

‘Okay,’ she agrees. ‘I will,’ She pushes me off her, pulling a disgusted face. ‘Quit with the slushy shit.’

‘Of course, it’s all me.’ I turn to the mirror, along with Kate, and we both start rubbing under our eyes.

‘What do you think Jesse is saying to Dan?’ Kate question reminds me quickly that they’re alone.

‘I don’t know.’ I say on a frown, but I suspect I do. ‘I’m going to find out. You good?’

‘Fan-fucking-tastic.’ She drops a quick peck on my cheek and leads the way from the ladies, her going right towards the bar, me heading left towards Jesse’s office.

I burst in, my eyes almost closed, like I’m protecting them from the certainty of seeing my brother held against the wall by his throat. He’s not, though. They’re in the same seated positions as the last time I walked in on them—Jesse in his chair, relaxed, and Dan with his back to me.

‘Why are you taking money from Jesse?’ I ask assertively in an attempt to make both of them see that I mean business. I definitely don’t mistake the rise and tense of Dan’s shoulders. He might have rumbled Jesse’s establishment, but I’ve rumbled this little agreement, although I don’t know what the agreement is or even if I want to know. But that doesn’t stop me from pressing on. ‘Are you going to answer me?’

Dan doesn’t, but Jesse does. ‘Ava, I told you to stay put.’

‘I’m not talking to you.’ I counter fearlessly, spiking an incredible scoff of disbelieve.

‘Well, I’m talking to you.’ he counters.

‘Shut up.’ I approach the desk and poke Dan in the back. ‘You’re keeping quiet. Have you nothing to say?’

‘See what I have to deal with?’ Jesse’s palms face the heavens in hopelessness. ‘Fucking pain in the arse.’

I flip Jesse a scowl and smack my brother on the shoulder. ‘Speak. What’s going on?’

‘I’m broke.’ Dan says quietly. ‘Jesse’s agreed to help me out.’

‘You asked?’ I blurt in disbelief. That’s brash, given the history of my husband and brother’s relationship.

‘No, he offered, and there were no strings attached… until ten minutes ago.’

‘You’re bribing my brother?’ I swing my gaze to Jesse, whose hands are now forming a thoughtful steeple in front of his mouth. ‘You’ve paid him to keep quiet?’

‘No, I’ve lent him some money and added a little clause to the contract at a later date.’

I’m appalled, but stupidly relieved. Jesse said my parents would never know, and he’s ensuring that he keeps his promise. ‘What about the surf school? And why haven’t you asked mum and dad? They would’ve lent you some money.’

‘We’re not talking a few quid, Ava. I’m up to my eyeballs. I’ve got myself a massive loan to fund my share of the business and my partner did a runner with it. I’m f**ked.’

I crumble. ‘Why didn’t you say anything?’

‘Why do you think?’ He looks truly humiliated. ‘I was turned over, Ava. I have nothing left.’

My sorry eyes fall back on Jesse, who’s remaining extremely quiet, but studying me closely. ‘How much?’ I ask. My question makes my husband look all uncomfortable, and Dan is shifting in his chair next to me, which can only mean one thing. I know we’re not talking about a couple of grand here. ‘Five thousand? Ten thousand? Tell me.’

‘Just a few.’ Dan interjects before Jesse can tell me himself. I don’t believe him for a moment.

‘Jesse?’ I push, holding him in place with a determined glare. I need to know how much trouble my brother’s in.

His eyes break from mine for a few moments and aim for Dan before he takes a deep breath and starts rubbing his temples. ‘I’m sorry, Dan. I’m not lying to her. Two hundred, baby.’ he says on a long exhale, continuing with the tension easing. I might need some temple rubs myself. I’m hoping by two hundred, he means pounds, but I know I’m hoping in vain. I stagger back a little in shock and Jesse is out of his chair in the blink of an eye. He looks mad.