Third Debt
Page 57“I don’t need to understand. All I know is my heart belongs to you.”
Jethro placed his fingertips over my mouth, shaking his head softly. “That isn’t enough—I owe you so much more than that. I want to show you the level of intensity I live with. I want you to know first-hand the sensory overload I suffer now that I’ve fallen in love with you.”
Fallen in love with you.
No words would ever compare.
I trembled as he stood up, gazing at my spread body. He stepped back; the bedside lights illuminated his spattering of chest hair and gleaming cock. His eyes hooded, filling with salaciously carnal intentions.
Even though I was the one tied up, he was the one bound—locked in a life that demanded so much from him. The longing on his face clenched my core, making me wet.
“You look incredible like that,” Jethro whispered. “Knowing you can’t run. Can’t hide. That you’re all mine.” He prowled to the side of the bed, dragging his fingertip over my knee, my thigh, between my legs, my belly, my breast, my chin, my mouth.
With a gentle press, he pushed his tattooed index past my lips. The thought of my initials stamping ownership on him reminded me we hadn’t done the tally for the Third Debt. I shouldn’t want something so ridiculous on my flesh, but I wanted him to sign and approve every inch of me. I wanted to be his completely and forever.
My tongue swirled around his finger.
He pulled his digit free. “Wait here. I have to get a few supplies from next door.”
Supplies? What supplies?
Ignoring my racing heartbeat, I laughed. “Where exactly can I go?”
He grinned—such a light-hearted sight. “Precisely. And that’s what makes this such fun.” He kissed the tip of my nose. “Wait for me.”
Then he was gone.
The moment he disappeared, doubt filled my mind. Did I want this to happen? What would he do?
Testing the bindings, I squirmed. Fear lurked on the outskirts of my brain, but my body only grew wetter. No matter what rational thinking told me I should want, I couldn’t deny I’d never been so turned on.
Jethro appeared again, locking the door behind him. He kept his hands behind his back, obscuring what he’d collected. “Remember you said you trusted me.”
Stopping at the base of the bed, he slowly brought forth the hunting whip he’d used the day he chased me through the forest. I recognised the diamond glinting on the handle. I’d seen it while hiding naked in the tree, begging for a chance to escape.
I flinched. “Hell, no…”
He can’t be serious.
A stroke was no longer a stroke but a tease.
A smile was no longer a smile but a promise. A deliciously dark, dangerous promise.
“You trust me?”
I breathed faster. How could I say I trusted him then doubt him the moment that trust was tested?
Locking eyes, I nodded.
Jethro relaxed a little, then his wrist flicked and he brought the whip down across the top of my thigh. Not hard, but hard enough that heat flared.
I jerked, panting at the scrambled messages my nervous system gave. Was it hot or cold? Did it feel good or bad? Did I want to run or stay?
I don’t know!
Jethro swallowed hard.
Can he sense my confusion?
His voice was thick as he demanded, “Tell me how it feels.”
I shook my head, drowning under another influx of sensation. There was no way to describe it.
“Try, Nila. I want to know.”
I scrunched up my face. “Um…it’s warm…tingling.”
Jethro chuckled. “No, I don’t want to know physically. I don’t care about physically.” He sat on the edge of the bed, stroking my cheek with tenderness. “I know how it feels on your body.” His stroking dropped to my breast, not touching flesh but something so much deeper. “I care about what you feel in here.” His fingers pressed firmer as if he could carve out my heart and protect it forever. “I want to know how your heart feels, your mind, your thoughts, your soul. I want everything. I want the truth.”
I gasped as his hand drifted from breast to pussy.
His mouth tightened as he pressed a finger inside me. “Tell me how this makes you feel.”
My hips arched, wanting him to push deeper, give me more. “I’m wet…”
He withdrew his fingers. “No.” Drawing my wetness up my belly and back to my heart, he murmured, “In here. Tell me. Go deeper than physical. Ignore mental. Tell me your deepest, darkest sensation.”
I moaned. My head fell back as I clenched around his touch. He made me feel idolized and wanted, dropping all his barriers, driving me upward to a familiar goal.
My mind was a mess. I couldn’t understand the threads of racing thoughts. But he needed this from me, I would do my best.
Jethro crooked his finger, rocking. “Tell me or I’ll stop.”
Don’t stop!
“I—I feel heavy. As if I’m too full and filling more and more the longer you touch me.”
“Good. Go on.”
“Um…I feel weightless as if I’m exactly where I need to be. I’m confused and crazy and needy and hazy. But through it all, I’m excited.”
He grunted. “Fuck, that’s a turn-on.” Bending over, he kissed me hard. “Having access to your body isn’t what I crave. It’s access to your mind. Your feelings I can sense, but your thoughts I can’t. It’s the one part of you I need to own—in order to give in completely.”
I quivered as he removed his finger and raised the whip again, torturing me slowly with it licking over my skin. “Do you understand what I need?”
“Yes, I think so.” I bit my lip as he circled the bed, never stopping his incessant stroking with the supple whip. With every stroke, I forced myself to focus on how I felt inside rather than how I reacted outside.
The physical was so much easier. My pulse thundered. My skin prickled. My blood raced. My core clenched. My body needed him desperately. And my libido scaled a mountain that terrified me.
But emotionally…I wasn’t prepared to go so deep. It was foreign territory to look so far inside. How could I truly understand who I was—not just as a woman or Weaver but as a human—a creature of breath and bone…of animalistic desires?
Were my thoughts normal? Were they acceptable? Was I weak or strong or broken? I didn’t know.
And Jethro wants to know…
On his second circuit, Jethro flicked the whip, striking my clit with a short, sharp burst.
“Oh, my God!” The intensity swooped hard, jerking my shoulders as a blistering wave of need spread from my core. The sweetest strangest buzz travelled through me. I became weightless all while heavy with colliding thoughts.
“Tell me how you feel,” Jethro purred.
I had no clear-cut answer, but I’d promised. I have to try. Closing my eyes, I focused inward. “There are too many thoughts to articulate. They’re all racing too fast.” Pulling on the restraints, I begged, “Jethro…”
“Quiet.” He dragged the whip up the centre of my body.
He didn’t disappoint.
He struck me short and sharp on my bellybutton.
I convulsed, soaking up the decadent bite. One moment, my thoughts were tamed, untangling themselves from the twisting mass of nonsensical nonsense, the next, they were a jumble of madness.
“And now,” Jethro said. “Now, how do you feel?”
“Now…I’m quiet. I’m tense. I can feel something inside me unlocking, opening.”
That’s the truth. I don’t know what’s unlocking but keep going—I want to find out.
Jethro sucked in a breath. Our eyes connected.
The unlocking inside flung wide open like a rusted gate. It was the weirdest thing. To feel your own soul unfurling. I’d never taken the time to truly feel myself. To know who I was. To rifle through my history, experiences, and fears.
“I’m—I’m letting you in.”
Jethro flicked the whip again. “More.” The leather kissed my ribcage.
I cried out at the sweet, burning sting.
“That’s what I want. That’s what I need.” He circled the bed again, flicking me in different spots: my hip, my bellybutton, my nipple.
Oh, my God, my nipple!
Fire flamed through my blood. A trickle of wetness slipped between spread thighs.
My body sang. My soul rejoiced. I’d never been so free…so unencumbered even while bound in place.
The crop licked my throat, slapping quickly on my diamond collar. The sound of chastisement and the swift burn of intoxicating pain throbbed my nipples. Jethro rained gentle punishment down my sternum toward my pussy.