The Treatment (The Program 2)
Page 6“I was never in The Program,” Cas says conversationally.
“But I lost my brother to the epidemic.”
I look up, a sharp ache in my chest. “Me too.”
“And my little sister went missing a while back,” Cas adds.
“Presumed dead. After Henley died, she kind of lost it. Became really paranoid, said our phones were tapped and that she was being followed. She disappeared, but it turns out she was right about The Program. I watched the handlers from the road as they showed up at the house looking for her.”
“How old is your sister?” James asks.
“She’d be fourteen now.”
A wave of nausea hits me with the thought of someone so young doing something as desperate as running away, possibly killing themselves. “I’m sorry,” I say, pushing my burrito toward James.
Cas sniffs hard. “Thanks. I keep thinking one day she’ll just show up. I’ll give her a big hug, and then I’ll ground her for the rest of her life.” He laughs, but he doesn’t look like he believes his words. He doesn’t think his sister will ever come back.
Cas pushes off the counter and lets out a shaky breath. “I should go,” he says. “I’m exhausted from the drive, and I need some sleep before our meeting.”
“Thank you,” I tell him quickly. “I really appreciate your help.”
“Damn,” James responds. “I was hoping for little choco-lates on my pillow in the morning.”
“Next stop. Promise.”
After Cas leaves, James resets my food in front of me, motioning for me to eat. After we’re both done, we grab a couple of bottles of water from the floor next to the fridge.
Even though it’s still daytime, it feels like it could be midnight—our days and nights are twisted around now that we’re on the run.
When we get to the room, James pushes open the door, and actually laughs. The small room has a twin bed and a shabby wooden dresser. There are no windows, only a naked bulb hanging from the ceiling as a source of light.
“Whoa,” James says, glancing sideways at me. “I sure hope I’m up-to-date on all my shots.”
I walk inside, relieved to see clean-looking sheets on the mattress. James closes the door and throws the lock before tossing the duffel bag on the dresser. He stands there, looking about the room and I go to sit on the edge of the bed.
“Could use a woman’s touch,” he says, glancing at me. “You up for it?”
I smile, knowing he’s not exactly talking about my decorat-ing skills. But I’m still bothered that Kevin is gone, that Lacey isn’t feeling well. I’m still bothered by everything.
James’s eyes slide over me, reading my expression. “Let’s crash,” he says softly. “We haven’t had any real sleep in days, and I think we should be clear for what comes next.”
James shakes his head. “I wish I knew.” He exhales and climbs onto the bed. He slaps the flat pillow a few times and then curls up behind me. When he’s quiet, I look down at him.
His eyes weaken slightly. “Want to snuggle?” he asks.
We’ve been through so much the past few days, few months, few years, I’m guessing. It’s too great to even put into words, so I nod and settle down next to him.
James moves until his mouth is at my ear. “We made it,” he whispers, the curve of his bottom lip grazing my skin. His other hand slides up my thigh, and James pulls my leg over his hip. Wrapped around him, I feel safer—like I can hold on to both of us.
But as James kisses my neck, I think about the pill in my pocket. We haven’t had time to discuss it, not fully. “James,” I say, my voice hoarse. “We should talk about the orange pill.” He stops abruptly, his breath still hot against my neck.
“Okay.” He trails his lips over my skin for another moment and then moves to rest his head next to mine on the pillow. His eyes read serious, even though he’s trying for calm. “What’s up?” It confirms my suspicions. “Would you want your past back, all of it—including the bad stuff—if it could make you sick again?”
“Sloane,” he says, “It doesn’t matter. We’ve—”
“If I wasn’t here,” I interrupt. “If I wasn’t a consideration at all, would you take it?”
“Where the f**k are you going?”
“Just answer me.”
“No hesitation?”
He scoffs, getting on his elbow to look down at me. “Sure I’d hesitate. This is dangerous stuff. But The Program took my life— our life together. It couldn’t have been all bad. I want to know who I was, and I want to know what happened to land me in The Program.”
I close my eyes, ready to cry. “Then you should take it,” I whisper. James wants his life back, even if it means he could get sick again. He’s willing to run the risk, so who am I to hold him back?
I’m giving him the same choice Realm gave me, right or wrong.
“Sloane,” James says, putting his hand on my cheek until I look at him. “I can’t take the pill. Not without you. And if you weren’t here, well . . . I don’t think I’d give a shit about anything at all. So let’s stop dreaming up stupid scenarios in which one of us evaporates and the other has to soldier on. If you want to take the pill, then let’s talk about the risks. Otherwise, we’re just going to hold on to it and see how this whole rebellion thing works out. Deal?”
James’s skin is flushed, his eyes wide with vulnerability. He’s lying; he wouldn’t hesitate before taking the pill. He’d swallow it down dry, to hell with the consequences. But he’s also stubborn—he would never take my choice from me. And for that, I love him madly. So I press my lips into a smile and draw him next to me once again, snuggling close until we both drift off.
Chapter Three
THOUGH THERE ARE NO WINDOWS, THE HARSH
overhead light from the bulb slowly draws me awake. James is turned away, calm and quiet with sleep. I’m not sure what time it is, but my body is restless. I get up and take the pill from my back pocket, staring at it through the plastic Baggie.